It has been a very long time since i have felt this bad about myself. I know I should just swallow it and move on. I know i should kick myself and then pick myself back up and move on. But I am stuck in this upset, mad, aggravated, depressed mood.

It was an awful weekend. Thursday night I took the BF to Hooters and went out drinking. Friday I had pizza and candy....and a lot of it. Saturday I drank regular coke ALL day. Sunday I did the same and had a can of ravioli's and candy at like 1030 at night. This morning when the scale said I gained 4 pounds in 4 days when I hadn't lost sh** in 6 days I literally wanted to cry. I know I deserve it. I know that it was my fault. Now I am one pound away from being back in the 200s. And I worked SO hard to get into ONEderland.

I also wanted desperately to not work Friday night at the restaurant. So I didn't. So when I worked Saturday night i only made $60. Again I wanted to cry. So I had to pick up and extra shift last night to try and make up for the loss. And I only made $40. Again wanting to cry. I am SO sick of people complaining about the economy. Get the F over it!!! If the economy is that bad cancel ur gym membership or DON'T GO OUT TO EAT. I was getting sh**ty tips all weekend. $6 on $50. $4 on $30. For the love of God, if u can't afford to tip properly stay the **** home and cook ur own food.

So I missed my daughter and BF all weekend so that I could work about 20 hours to make $100. I want to lay down and cry.

Then today stupid people are coming in and calling. I swear. One more "this economy" or "the economy is so bad" I will shoot myself in the eye and then the person that says it in the foot.

Okay, I'm done now. I'm still upset. I haven't smiled all morning. I am back OP today and gonna try to fit cardio/strength in. I may have to pick up shifts to make up for my loss of money....which is extra babysitting, which kind of defeats the purpose. Oh well the cost of making bad choices and sleeping with a sorry a** piece of sh**.

Hope everyone else's day is better than mine.

there's not a damn thing i can say that will put a smile on your face right now... but i'm thinking of something.... and i'll get back to you.

so for now

I smirked a little. LOL. Oh and Congratulations on meeting your goal. That is fantastic!!!!!

just a tip.....shoot them in foot first. better to have 2 eyes to aim with.

JUST KIDDING!

dont shoot anoyone.

LOL

Ok that made me smirk a little too. LOL

Darn it! Too bad I'm like 5 hours away from you, or I'd offer free babysitting services for you! I totally agree with the tipping situation though, as I am in the same boat... People come in and want fabulous service, which I give them, and give little to nothing for a tip. *sigh* It will get better!! Just keep your head up, and get back on point!

And anyways, have customers never seen Waiting? I would totally never ever spit in someone's food, but come on people!! That's what you need to do, watch that movie, and learn some strategies to retaliate... Just in case

LOL! I know I'm scared to be mean at restaurants because of that movie!! I appreciate you thinking of me and I wished you lived closer too. LOL. I actually wish more that my mom and sister would help more. Oh well. I made my bed......

Nicki Okay here's the good news! SO it is not exactly normal to gain 4 lbs in 4 days considering it probably took two to lose in the first place. The minute (meaning today) that you are back OP the lbs will melt off because for ONE you didn't gain 4lbs of fat it's most likely water retention from all the sodium and sugar. For TWO so what you had a few night that were....wild n crazy that is over and you WILL bounce back!!!

SOrry about work and the babysitter issue and for the peeps w/ the economy issue shooting them in the foot isn't good enough since they can still talk...instead use a fork to the throat... LOL

Good luck I think you will be fine...As far as people tipping consider it Karma. One day it will bite them in the a**. Keeping your head up and moving on is a great thing for your daughter. I keep telling myself that I have to do this so she doesn't adopt by behaviors.

My hubby gives me **** all the time because I leave a 20 tip for decent service and maybe more for excellent service. I think alot of tipping depends on whether or not you have ever had to rely on those tips for your income.

Hope everything works out on the babysitting end. I have been watching a friends three kids for a few weeks because her mother decided she didn't get enough money to watch her own grandkids. (she made them bring their own food too) I charge them half as much and make the kids two meals. But I recently got a job that I am starting in two weeks and feel bad that they will need to find other help.

Cake LOL a fork to the throat...?!?! Any experience with that one?

BlissI will not incriminate myself HAHAHA

We all need a little Ben Stein, I think

He was just saying, "You know what? 92% of us are employed. 95% of us are paying our mortgage. That's not so bad, is it? So stop being so hysterical!! We need you to not be hysterical and spend some cash!"

Funny, he hasn't been invited on the Today show yet!

LOL!!! thanks guys! Ya'll are a trip!

I can relate. I binged last night before my weigh in and was up three pounds! I wanted to cry. But the only thing I can do is get back on track! You will feel better in three days of eating OP (that's how long it takes me).