I don't know what my deal is this week. I've been super lazy, and messy. But it didn't get really bad til last night. I just sort of snapped and became really irritable and cranky. When I woke up this morning it was even worse. My roommate is starting to really annoy me. Being together in this dorm room everyday doesn't help.

So last night I was at the mall picking up my roommate's bday present. When I was there I decided to try on some clothes since I've been needing some new stuff. I went into Charlotte Russe, I found a couple really cute things. I got them in larges and the pants in size 11, although I thought they might be too big. But NO! They were SOOO tight! UGH why do they make clothes for middle schoolers? Seriously! After that I just felt super disgusting. I have been feeling so fat and gross all day. Plus I really just want to go home but this isn't my weekend to go home.

Oh, and tonight is my roommate's birthday. Me and a couple friends are taking her out to eat, and she wants to go to this dance club. Personally, I don't go to parties, I don't really go to dance clubs and I don't drink. I've been to a dance club before and I had fun, but tonight I really REALLY don't want to. I feel obligated though since its her birthday...

Anyway, I called my mom a little bit ago cause she always makes me in a better mood, but she didn't answer. A few minutes later she texted me saying, "Hi Lovey! I'm in a seminar all day. I'll call you later. Love you!" And I cried. I literally cried.

What is my problem?

Also, I was supposed to weigh myself this morning but I just couldn't do it. I knew that no matter how much I lost I wasn't going to be happy with it.

Not to sound cliche, but is it near that TOM? I get super moody around that time (then again, I'm bipolar, but it gets so much worse right beforehand).

If this is a common occurence you might consider talking to a counselor or a therapist. Actually, even if it's not common, talking to a therapist might help a lot. It helps me.

Also, about the shopping thing, I never go shopping unless I'm having a "skinny" day. If the clothes I already have are feeling tight or the scale is creeping up, I will not even consider going shopping.

When I have a crap day I usually crawl into bed when I get home and watch reruns until I go to bed. I avoid thinking, cause it just makes things worse.

i was going to ask exactly the same question as dominodreams did! the way you're feeling i feel every time i get to the week before my TOM.

other than that, are there other things stressing you out right now? are you keeping up with college work and things?

it's hard sharing a room with someone at the best of time let alone when you're at college and there's many other things to do and see but you have to be aware of a room mate. just because it's her birthday doesn't mean you're obligated. just expain to her that you dont want to go. on the other hand, when i am forced to do stuff i dont want to i often find that i've quite enjoyed it.

Actually yeah, I'm having an issue with my birth control and I've been bleeding for over a week now even though I'm in the middle of the pack of pills. I already talked to my doctor about it so thats not a problem but I'm sure it could be affecting my mood.

Sounds like your in a bout of depression. My therapist told me that normal people who aren't diagnosed with "depression" still get little spells of it from time to time. Lasting a few days.... You have to have to have to lift yourself out of it. I find that it won't just happen.

I know you don't want to - but get up, go work out, then clean your house/bedroom whatever, then take a bubble bath and do your nails and hair - and go our with your friends. But - drive separately so you can go out for a bit, then leave when you want. That's what I would do. I hope you feel better!

Well , not to sound bad but it could be so much more worse. A size 13/14 could be tight or snug. You are doing so well on your plan! We all get down sometimes. When I am stressed out or feeling down it does affect my body. Once I was stressed out and didnt lose wight for a couple weeks when life got back to normal I let some pounds go.

Maybe getting dolled up and going to the club with friends will cheer you up. Sometimes, just taking the extra time with our appearance can brighten our mood. Curl your hair....try on different shirt. Put on the one that brings out your eyes. Try a different lip color. Show yourself off tonight. You deserve to have a good time and to feel good about yourself. Take care!!

I've been trying to cheer up. I took a long shower, did my make-up, and hair. I even did my nails. I'm going to try and have a good attitude about going out tonight.

garstar I really like the idea of driving seperately, but I can't. 5 of us are going and only 2 of us have cars. I'm one of the ones with a car, so I will probably end up giving a couple others a ride.

Oh well... we'll see how tonight goes.

Hey, it's been awhile, but how did it go? Are you still feeling crappy?

I always get the winter blues around this time of year...low grade depression. I'm more moody than usual, and I don't want to do anything.

Maybe it's the season?

It actually went pretty well. I ended up going out with them and it was fun. This week has been kind of stressful but I am just counting down days til this weekend when I get to see my boyfriend for the first time in two weeks

Thanks for asking!! How is everyone else doing?