Can I just say that I have no idea whats up with my body. I was at 170 for well over a month, was 169 yesterday and today I'm 167. I'm not changing my ticker unless it happens again tomorrow and if it does I'm officially a freak of nature and you guys should run, far and fast.

I am up for easy amusement today.

I am studying my bum off for my LAST COLLEGE FINAL EVER (kinda excited cant ya tell) in about 4 hours, and I am just typing away making notes and I look up and I seen some of the worst jibberish ever it didn't even make words I believe. Ironically I had just read about encryption and etc so I guess it was fitting. LOL

Back to studying......

Hey hot mommas!

How y'all doing today? It is officially almost the weekend and I can't wait! I have friend that lives in Kansas City and she is flying out for the weekend to see some friends near the beach. I'm going to drive down and see her on Saturday. I'm so excited!

So the boys in the shop or at least in that department are still giving me the silent treatment. I hate it. I feel like an outcast. I should have never said anything. Grrrrrr........


Bee- I bet that feels good to say. "Last final ever!"

Kell- join the club! My body should go in to the almanac as a freak of nature.... I feel you girl, just ride that wave!

Heather- You are officially the bomb in my book! The fact that you knew the line of shake them haters off.... I'm in awe!!!!

Kelli- I feel your pain for good news!! I weighed myself yesterday at 204.8 so I am officially changing my ticker. HOpefully I keep going down and by next wednesday my goal is 202.8 or lower....we'll see though.

Please get these chocolate covered candies away from me!!!!! Awwww.... I've had 5 which is 175 calories.... No mas....

I am healthy and I don't need stinking chocolate.... sorry.... trying self talk. lol

HWGA- all I can say is "YOU CAN DOOOO IT"!! haha anyways you have progressed so far..I can't wait to see your before and afters once you get down or closer to your goal...can i say HOTTIE

Thanks girl! I appreciate that especially right now. So I have managed to stay away from the chocolate. I have just polished off my morning snack of grapes and feel better. Isn't funny how one day chocolates beside you don't bother you and the next they have to be hidden? So strange....

How are you guys gonna get all chatty without me yesterday? Just wrong! We were having some major shipping issues yesterday and folks are starting to worry because UPS ground takes a whole week to get to the east coast and blah, blah, blah.

I have a headache and I have cramps...my like sucks.

I also spent my car insurance payment at the beauty supply store this morning. I HAVE GOT to start wearing my real hair. This mess is getting expensive.

Ok, since you guys have all the fish recipes, who’s coming with me to the store so I don't look all stupid trying to buy some? And Ghost, I'll need you in the spice isle. OMG! I have like 6 spices in my house; salt, pepper, garlic powder, sage and hot sauce. I don't even have any onions right now.

Ok, so I have to go to this office holiday dinner what not on the 22nd...not really feeling it. For one, I always get looks when I order a plain salad with dressing on the side as my entree. Why is it such a surprise when a fat person orders a freaking salad? And then, someone is going to say, "Aren’t you hungry?" Because salad isn't food, apparently...*eye roll* and I can't be normal and order a regular dinner because it will take me over calories since it's a Monday and I'll feel guilty and make myself sick later and blah, blah, blah. I wonder if I can get out of it…

Why can't it be 36 hours from now?

Mornin ladies!
Gawd, where to start. yesterday was a bad/weird/good/fabulous day all wrapped up in one. bad because of my food and weight struggles, weird because I feel like I'm in an episode of the twilight zone, also weird because it snowed 2 feet last night and the moon was amazing looking. good because I didn't think I was going to be able to make it to cardio this week but the excercise goddess blessed me with a spare hour for cardio last night. And finally, fabulous because I talked to the boy on the phone for an hour last night and he is really into me and that makes me feel so damn good.

HWGA: pour bleach on the chocolate. I did have half a bagel yesterday afternoon, and I felt so much better afterwards too. Then, I accidentally distroyed the rest of them by *oops* spilling coffee in the box...my bad...

Cali: I'm with you on the holiday party trepidation. Can we boycott? Bah humbug! And I will go to the spice isle with you any day, I am a spice-a-holic. My spice cupboard is bigger then the cupboard for my dishes, and I'm not even kidding.

Bee: Good luck on your final final, and may you never have to finalize anything again.

Kelli: lets start a freak of nature club thread...I think we'll have more members than the "normal" people club.

ghost: thats a gooood idea! I think its because for the last month I mentally just wanted to maintain and I did. Now I want to lose and I am, my weightloss tends to follow my mental thoughts, well only when I'm eating right and exercising tho too, lol.

cali: maybe you can order a lean meat and some veggies instead, that way you can go to the dinner, enjoy a free meal and not have to deal with other people trying to make you feel bad for eating healthy while they load up their arteries with cholesterol.

hwga: i totally agree, I have this tin of cholocate covered pretzels they've been in the kitchen since thanksgiving. I didn't eat any until 2 days ago and now I've eaten a total of 4. Sheesh..

bee: good luck girl! I JUST finished my last final of my undergraduate career and I think its safe to say that I am super excited! I'm going shopping for my graduation dress in a minute, I wish I didn't have to work tonight.

blcarter: you are SOOO close to the 100's! I'm so happy for you. Good luck on your goal girl.

So after my final I went in to talk to my teacher about my papers. We had 10 financial papers due this semester and the first bunch I got like 100, 90, 95, 80.. the last ones I've gotten a 30!!, 70, 75.. and I"m like WTF? He doesn't give rubrics for grading purposes and then he counts off when something is missing. There's about 2 lines in the syllabus for the "criteria" for each paper and he doesn't discuss them in class. How can you count off for something if we didn't know it was supposed to be there! So I honestly thought I might fail this class because he gave us 100/150 on our final paper. Luckily I forgot about a bunch of other points we had in the class so I"m sitting at about a 79%.. not happy but at least I'm not failing it!

I turned in the rest of my books.. now its graduation and PACKING!

hey ladies!!! can i join in the chat too.

so me and the bf are going to FL on tuesday. its our first trip together. im excited. im definitely no where near my goal, but i think i might have a tiny bit more confidence parading in a bathing suit now.

i am feeling a bit worried though. this is my first time back in the states in a few months and before weight loss. i'm feeling weird that no one will notice a difference. or that they will be disappointed that i didn't lose more. :|

im also worried about visiting my friends and family and straying off plan. i almost want to cut my adventure back to the homefront short for fear of losing my loss completely. but i'd go crazy if i came back here and was alone literally for 2 or 3 weeks not having contact with another person. yikes.

anyone else worried about the holidays. anyone going for a long period of time to see family. how are you dealing with it.

Congratulations to all you grauduates! You have done something truely amazing and I am so proud of all of you!

i graduated a few years ago... you can be proud of me though, it really was a miracle to say the least...

I'm proud of you too! ****, I'm proud of everybody...because we freakin' ROCK!

Yall are too funny.

I am off to go take my last final, it doesnt start for about another 20 minutes but I need my chill out and get in testing mode time. ttfn