I'm so depressed. Last week, my wireless just stopped working on my computer. I thought it was something I did, so I called technical support and he asked me a couple of questions about my laptop and if it had been overheating...which is has but it's been doing that for like a year now. So there is some type of defect on the model notebook I have and now it has to be shipped to some repair place and I'm not going to get it back for like 3 weeks! They are replacing the mother board and some other computer speak, so I've been computer-less since last Thursday. BRUTAL! At least it’s covered by warranty. Last night, I had to MacGyver me up a computer, using my sis old laptop--the screen was broke but the computer still worked and I hooked it up to the monitor of my ancient HP and found that old Compaq keyboard in the closet. The computer is slow as cold molasses, but beggars can't be choosers, right?

Meanwhile, when I'm depressed I have no energy to eat or exercise. I feel like such a blob right now.

On the bright side, I don't mind being at work where the high speed internet is.

Just wanted to check in. Today didn't go steller, I was starving all day eventhough I was eating, which caused me to overeat (I haven't figured out my calories today but I'm sure it is over 1400). I was rejected from donating blood because my iron was too low :(

However I did buy a dress for a wedding I have to go to Labor day. I'm going to keep looking but this one is cute, it's a little big so it is hard for me to justify the expense. They didn't have it in a 12. However, I'm going to keep looking and return it if I find one that fits me better.

Remember -- at least the dress is a little BIG and not a little SMALL, right??

caligirl -- ewwwwwwww I think computer problems stress me out more than any other kind of problem. Probably because I just don't understand them at all, but at least yours is covered under warranty!!

I'm REALLY nervous for these next 2 weeks because bf has left to go on a trip with his friends. I'm happy he's going, but I only binge when he isn't here. We're the only two who live in our apt., so it's REALLY easy to binge having nobody around. I had a little mini-binge tonight...but I hadn't really eaten all day (I wasn't hungry....I try really hard not to eat if I'm not hungry) and it didn't put me too far over my cals, so that's sort of a small semi-victory. I feel that post-binge grossness now, though, so I'm hoping that remmebering this feeling will motivate me to not binge the rest of the time he's not here......but I'm definitely going to need some BIG TIME 3FC support this week.... :(

ETA: Just entered all of my food (including the binge) into TDP....only 121 cals over my estimate, so I guess it's not so so bad. But still....THE BINGING. AHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRGGGGGGG.

arts, I'm sorry to hear that about binging when he's not there. How about trying to find something you can do? like reading books or something like that to take your minid off of eating? 121 cals isn't that bad, either! Good luck for the next 2 weeks and let us know how it goes.

Remember Wow! 2 jobs! That's great! I'm sure you will be able to decide which one works better for you.

cali I know how it feels about computer. My laptop died and the only way to get on the net was at work and using my bf's computer... it sucked... well, now i got my own again. yay! hopefully they will fix sooner than expected time.

This week has finally weighed me down. No pun intended. I'm usually so motivated and even though I gained 6 pounds in 3 days the week before TOM, I tried to keep positive. But... I kinda feel like it all fell apart. I was so tired I could hardly function for two weeks. We ordered out three times in one week and then went out to lunch on sunday. I managed to lose the water weight and am up only two and half pounds at 203.4 from 200.8. I'm so mad at myself for being so uncontrollably tired.

I just want to reach ONEDERLAND!!!! I will feel so accomplished. I feel like I havent really set mini goals for myself. I need to do that more. I will reach 198 by the September 1st!

I've really cracked down more on my eating this week. Eating something fiberous for breakfast (oatmeal or kashi cereal, etc) trying to stick to all veggies/fruit for lunch and maybe a few nuts throughout the day. Get my meat and remaining grains at dinner. :/ I dont know. I feel happy with it.

I'm just so blah and stuck at the moment. I feel. :(

Hey y'all - My eating was TERRIBLE this weekend - gained 3 lbs. (which I'm assuming is water weight) since Friday! But I got back on track yesterday, and I'm already starting to de-bloat.

Cali - I *hate* it when I don't have internet access. I feel cut off from the world.

Remember - Where did you get the dress? I have to go shopping for one soon.

Bombshell - You CAN DO IT! Don't let the evil TOM get you down.

IT's hard to stay motivated. Try googleing "diet motivation" there are some good articles to get you back up and motivated hopefully.

Some things I do are buying a new work out outfit, or trying a new recipe... I don't know - keep your head up, it's worth it in the end! Just remember what you're working towards,and how far you've come!!

After I wrote that, I spent about twenty minutes browsing the "Goal!" forum pictures. They were so inspiring! I got up and Worked out on the elliptical. Only 20min/420 calories, but that is better than nothin! And I dont think I've even eaten that many calories today yet... Anyway.

If you ever start feeling down, go troll there for a while. It gives you a sense of "I can do it too!" It picked me up out of my funk anyway :)

if you go to the main page that lists all the forums and scroll down you will come to "diet central" where there are lots of forusm for the different diets :)

ok so ive been gradually drifting off track this week..you know, i'll just have one biscuit, oh maybe some cheese as well, that icing looks nice, arrggh! But i am ready to be back on track today- going to the gym which always helps me get my eating patterns back on track, and the icing is in the bin :carrot:

garstar, you mentioned motivation...and that reminded me of something that happened last night. well. some of you know about my ex MIL.. I still have to deal with her daily because she watches my DD when I'm at work at night. Two nights ago, she told me that she decided to do Nutrisystem... I told her good luck, regardless of what my thoughts are about that program. She didn't ask for my advice and I decided not to give one out unless someone asks for it last time I had a talk about weight loss with her. Then last night, she told me she's returning the Nutrisystem stuff.. I was surprised. Well, she actually then said she's going to do "Smart for life". At first I wasn't sure what that was...until she said something about Cookie. I remembered reading something about it on here 3FC but I never really paid attention because for me, that was not teaching something for life time. I'm sure there are people on here doing that program and doing great.. :) Anyways... that program is not cheap at all. wow... well, she then said some guy at church lost 63 lbs doing it so that's why she decided to change from Nutrisystem to Smart For Life. She then said "I need something quick and easy to lose weight to MOTIVATE me. And once I lose what I want to lose, then I'm going to work hard to maintain." She also made it very clear that she is not interested in working out at all. So.. with this program, she eats 4 cookies or something like that and lean meat and veggies for dinner. That's it for the day. I didn't really research that much into it but... I did ask her about after stopping the program. Problems with Nutrisystem or something like Grape diet and stuff like that...is that you gain weight all back because you don't learn how to eat healthy on your own. She said they teach you once you reach the goal and changing the phase or something like that. I wished her good luck...

I just thought... how are you supposed to be able to maintain weight that you lost quick and easy, when you don't know how to since you didn't do it on your own....?

I just thought of that when you said "Motivation.." lol

Yeah, it's kind of like I forgot how to function without internet access. And there was a time in my life...say 10 years ago...when I didn't have internet access. How did I live?

This is almost as bad as when I dropped my cell in the toilet and lost all of my numbers. I didn't talk to my mom for 2 weeks because I didn't have her number written down anywhere.

Today is a good day I’ve been able to control my eating fairly well. I stabbed myself in the figure when I opening a package of hot dogs. Hopefully the bleeding stops soon. I packed for my trip, I over packed, but was able to fit everything in one bag. I just have to make sure it weights less then 50 pounds.

Blond – Your close don’t fret you’ll hit onderland soon. A motivation I just did was to post a full body before photo on myspace and a current full body shot. It reminds me how far I’ve come.

Ursus – I’m sure it’s water weight, try and drinking extra water (with lemon in it).

Tara – Your ex-MIL is jealous of you success and clearly looking for the easiest way out. I agree that people like that don’t have long term success because they don’t correct the problem of what caused their obesity.

isn't it just crazy how you can get when you can't use the internet!! It's insane how much we have become dependent on the computer! I am absolutely addicted to it. I honestly can't imagine my life without it!! How sad is that? Just a few years ago, the internet wasn't an everyday thing at all!!!

I went on a baking binge today. I made sugar-free banana nut muffins, and pine honey blackberry muffins. The banana turned out amazing. The blackberry is intersting beause of the pine honey. I also cleaned out the fridge and packed for my trip. I'm going to take the muffins to my intership with me tomorrow and share, save a few for my sister and maybe put one or two in the freezer for me. I just love cooking.

aerogora - I agree I couldn't live without internet, I don't know what I would do without facebook and myspace.

MMMM Those muffins sound delicious. Do you know any good low fat recipes? Ones that actually taste good?