I understand the no goal weight thing... I started seeing a nutritionist when I was 3 because I was a fat kid. I went to my first 'diet doc' in middle school. I don't remember ever being a size 8 or 10... which is crazy now that I think about it. Just a few months ago when I was at 250 I was thinking how CRAZY it'd be if I got down to 180. I've been over 200 as far back as I can remember. So I set that as my goal. Now that I'm nearing it, I'm still totally fat(I'm one to use the term fat loosely so don't take offense... just insert any adjective here... like obese or overweight, etc) and I know that I have another 50 or so to go. It's just strange because I thought that when I reached this magical 180 point, I'd be totally elated. I am... don't get me wrong... but it's daunting that I still have so much more work ahead of me.

Seriously... it really is good to know that I'm not the only one with such problems.

Count me in as someone who ballooned at the start of school.... There were 2 boys who teased me constantly at the start of 1st grade- I wonder if it's related... I'm also of the public weigh in crowd. I can only hope that our schools have gotten better- perhaps due to the dramatic increase of overweight children over the past decade. Looking back, it's almost sadistic what kids are put through....

I was at a friend's gig last night and in attendance was a girl from middle/high school. She wasn't a mean girl, but she certainly ran with that crowd. Well, we had a perfectly good time except every few minutes she would make a remark like, "You must think I'm such a fat a$$" "It's either beer or food because I'm now so fat"... It was really odd. She had put on some weight, but ONLY because she wasn't 15 years old!!! She was by no means overweight, but it reminded me how self conscious people are even as grown ups.

It was very, very, strange.

I too have always been heavy. I started gaining a lot of weight when I hit puberty at age 9. I have been a size 18/20 since I was a teen. The lowest weight I've ever been was 180 when I did Atkins. Since then I was my heaviest at 243. I have no idea what it is like to be thin. I think seeing what it looks like is what keeps us going. That's the goal.

lovinlifex2 - Skinny jeans are back in now, so you can bust those bad boys out the closet and buy a cute top ('cause I'm not to sure about the tie-dye thing) and some ankle boots or flats... You'l have a master piece. Do you not not that people go to thrift and vintage stores to get that retro look? I think your skin tight jeans would be fabulous :D

Jillybean - I know exactly where you are coming from.... I've never be an average size...When I was in elementary I remember shopping at JCPenny as well and getting the Arizona brand in plus sizes. But by the time I reached 6th Grade, I remember wearing a size 10 in petite woman sizes. I was so upset! I was one of the biggest girls in 6th grade and was only two :rofl: O WELL!

I can so relate to your incident you and your mom had with the teacher. :D It wasn't because of me being weighed in front of the class (I don't think we ever had to experience that) but because I use to get teased and picked on alot because of my weight (mostly from guys) and I use to cry and the some teachers were insensitive, so I would go home and tell my mom all in tears, and the next day she would go up to the school and tell everyone off :frypan:(well not everyone, but one teacher in particular, and said something to the little boy as well). Too FUNNY! :cp::rofl::

:cp: I'm so with you on that issue with your mom thing. I'm 23 y/o and because of some stressful events in my life, I'm basically back at home with my mom.

Anywhoo.... I think my mom is jealous as well. all mylife you use to buy my clothes extra big just so she could wear a smaller size then me. She use to buy my underwear the same way (which was a size 8, cause she wore a size 8, and on me they would come all the way up to my boobs lol)(I know TMI) Sanething w/ shoes as well. But since Jan, I decided to try and lose weight for good. And she has did nothing but try and sabotage my efforts. She would bring two boxes of donuts in the house, and all this junk food. And when she cooked dinner she would say "help yourself" I don't care if you eat. Eat more". Even though she knew I was trying to lose weight. She would buy pop (soda), candy, chips, etc. I HATE IT... It makes me so mad :mad:

One event that I can most definitely remember and confirm that she is jealous, about two years ago, my mom bought a skirt that was a size 16, it was too big on her, so she returned it for a size 14.... when she came home with it she tried it on and she couldn't zip the skirt around her waist and stomach area. and it was tight. At this time I was a probably around 180lbs. I tired on the skirt and I still had on my pants underneath the skirt and the skirt was still loose. She was so mad. I forgot what comment she made, but I was upset for her to respond the way she did.

She was suppose to start her so called diet at the end of Janurary, beginning of feb... something like that, and untill this very day hasn't made any effort to do so. Keeps puttin off, which is her choice. But my point is, don't take others with you in your misery. She knows I'm miserable at the size I am. Why not try and help? It kinda hurts! But regardless of her sabotaging ways :kickbutt:, I have gained alot of will power from this! I have self control and determination. I eat healthy, I go to the gym, I'm more active. So thats all that matters.

:DMaybe we need to start a support for parents that are haters which is our motivators!!!:D


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the last time i was 135 (my goal weight) was... hmmm i don't remember. must've been junior high anyway. i was 170-180 my senior year of high school (11 years ago *eek*) and i have fluctuated between 165-185 every since then. so i have no idea what size i'll be or what kind of clothes i'll look good in. in all honesty i'm a little nervous to find out!

OMG... Thats sounds so much like me when I was in high school. I became real close with the librarians and aided at my high school, and same thing with my art teacher.

Oookie Doookie
It's my turn now :D

It all started when I was born (lol), I was a very LARGE baby, I was like 9lbs and 12oz, I believe! But as I got older I started gettin smaller and when I was like around 12 months, I was an average sized baby. Around then up until I was probably like 6 or 7, I was itty bitty... my nickname use to be mini. But I remember having a bad asthma attack and the doctor put me on medication with stelroids (I know I spelled that wrong) and since then I gained a lot of weight. Some guys use to tease me in elementary and middle school calling me fat and everything else. I use to have to shop at JCPenny's in the plus girl section. By the 6th grade I wore a size 10 in women petite sizes. I hated taking pictures, I know my 8th grade graduation picture, I looked so unhappy, like I didn't want to small.... Maybe I'll post it one day.

In high school I totally didn't fit in. Ever since pre-school, I went to the same private school, up until 8th grade. And after that I went to a DETROIT PUBLIC HIGH SCHOOL.:yikes: (If anyone know about Detroit, you know it can get quite rough). But anyways, I wasn't use to how the kids use to behave and dress (In Detroit, especially high school, poeple are know to put on "fashion shows" meanin dressin to impress w/ the expensive name brand clothes that comes in smaller sizes.)

I was a loner, I had very few friend, I mostly kept to myself. I remember being embrassed tryin to walk down the isles in some of my classes and have squeezed by because the class was so small and the desks where really close together. I never wore skirts or dresses and always had on my coat even around summer. Around this time I was a size 18/20. And this was the biggest I've ever been in my life.

I remember not participating in many activities in high school, I use to stay in the library or the art room and draw my heart away (very talented artist). In my senior year, I didn't do any activities like homecoming, prom, whatever it was the seniors did to celebrate their final year. I'm so hurt that I let my self confidence get in the way of milestones and memories. Actually, during my 4 years in high school I remember only going to 1 homecoming, in the 9th or 10 grade, and basically sat the whole night.

I didn't even graduate w/ my class. I graduated that summer... only reason being was in the last semester, I decided and was approved by my insurance company, to have a breast reduction. I use to be a 38 FF....

But when I moved to GA to go to school, I started losin weight, not even tryin. I was so busy and very social and HAD to walk just about everywhere.
The smallest I ever been was probably 160 between 2003 - 2005. And after havin my daughter in 2006, I have been in my 200's.

But I've noticed that no matter how much I gain or lose..... whether I'm 220 or 180 I still wear a size 14... Which is strange to me!

But that is my story.... and I'm sticking to it.
I know my post was long.... Sory about that!:D

That's very interesting that between those weights, you stay in a fourteen but i guess I can relate. I really have been losing weight and yet, i'm still in the same size. I have had two people comment that my pants look like they're a little big now but the thing is, they're still about the same in the waist. So maybe we're losing the weight other areas. I think i'm losing in my thighs and it looks like I'm getting "less wide" if that makes sense....but I still have a stomach so I guess that would be why my pants still fit??? :shrug:
Same probably for you. I bought a new pair of pants in one size down and every week I try them on and say "Not yet." Ha-ha. Maybe next week!!!! ;)

My sizes never fluctuate much. Between 180 and 150 i was always a 14, and 150 down to 135 i was always a 12.

Unfortunately i am a 16 now, but even at my smallest my size was never a 6 or an 8, i don't think it ever will be even at a completely normal weight. It's just how my bones are built.

Yeah ; ; I was a 24 until just very recently. Had to lose almost 70 lbs before I changed sizes. >_< I finally got a chance to go out and buy some 22 pants. I hope it doesn't take another 70 lbs to go to a 20! :lol: (I know it shouldn't... the less we weight, the less poundage it takes to go between sizes!)

I guess that could be it as well... my bone structure, I guess I'm "BIG BONED" :lol:. I don't know about the waist thing. Cause my jeans fit in the thigh and tush area (yea, I have thunder thighs), but in the waist area its loose, especially when I lose weight. I guess I'm not losing weight in my thigh area. :tantrum: And I guess it wouldn't be as bad if I didn't have cellulite and jiggled!!!:fr:

But it would be so exciting to see what I could look smaller. I think if I got to my goal weight I wouldn't look right, probably like a crackhead or something :lol:. I wonder what the perfect weight for me. I know I just want to be a size 6 or 8. :woohoo:

I have pretty much always been a chubbas too. I have always been very very short, so my weight doesnt sound bad, but in middle school at probablt 4'9 - 4'10 I was a size 7 or 9, which is chubby for being that short. I was at my highest weight ever last month, which was 152 pounds and a size 11. I have always had pretty good friends so I didn't get made fun of very much at school, it was at home that was the problem. My mom is 4'11 and I couldn't even guess how much she weighs. My dad on the other hand is a stickfigure and has done nothing but put down my moms appearance since before they divorced when I was 9. Ever since then he has always critisized my weight as well, telling me I would grow up and be just like my mother. I also have a brother who is a year older and he is very thin like my dad. Ever since I was probably about 5 he has called me names like fatty and tub of lard. Even though we were so close in age we went to different high schools (court ordered) because of the fights we would get in. When his friends would find out he had a sister they would ask questions about me and he would just tell them, "you don't wanna get with my sister, she's way fat." So I definitely feel your pain ladies.

omg, we should start a club, i swear! i too, have never felt thin!! Even at my lightest, I still felt "blob-like" lol.

I look back though and to me, then I WAS thin, but by everyone else's (my friends, etc) comparisons, I probably wasn't. 5'5 and 135 in high school. But I was athletic, so I always felt- beefy, lol. I think that is the word to use! I was a size 6 jeans though. I would kill for that now...I am in a 13/14 now. But NOT FOR LONG! WAHOOOOOOOO! :)

Good luck to all of you. Keep working. Someday we may actually be thin. Can you imagine? I am hoping that by my 27th birthday (next year - March) that I am "thin". By my standards this is about 130. My short term goal is 149, so that is 50lbs. I know I can do this, I know you guys can too.

Can't wait to talk to you all more!!! :)

-Kristin