Oh, Joanne, don't be so hard on yourself! Keep in mind that one of the most important things about weight loss is learning how to keep the weight off at the end! That means occasionally having "bad" foods, and learning how to trust that a little indulgence every now and then isn't going to kill you!
I'm having huge problems with this these days. Today I was moved onto stabilization, and I'm really scared. They start adding more foods in, and all of the bad foods that were off limits are available to me now. For example, this week I get unlimited veggies, next week I get an extra dairy, the week after an extra fat, and if I'm still within 3 lbs of my current weight, week 4 I get an extra fruit, week 5 I get an extra starch, and week 6 I get another fat. I'd be able to handle that, if it wasn't for the new booklet they gave me, listing all sorts of bad foods and what they count as! I realize I have a pretty bad relationship with food, and that I definitely have to get over this fear of eating and just trust that I won't gain the weight back! It's hard, but we'll get there
thank God..
