Ah, monthly mood swings and chowing down on food. I wish there was a way to not get like this every month. :( It's always a struggle, about one week out of every four.

Thursday
Breakfast: McD's fruit and yogurt parfait (they forgot my granola!) and a South Beach breakfast burrito
Snack: Baby carrots with fat free ranch dip, and a dark chocolate Hershey miniature
Lunch: McD's new Asian salad with grilled chicken, and apple dippers (apples with low-fat caramel dip, just a little)
Snack: Nabisco 100 calorie snack pack and one bite of the lemon/blueberry coffee cake (it simply wasn't good enough to spend 500 probable calories on a slice, maybe more, so I had the one bite I clocked in at 40 calories, and ate the snack pack)
Dinner: Quizno's Angus Steak and cheese sub, and some soy chips -- to my credit, I ordered a small and not a regular. Estimated 700 calories for the sandwich, but I have no clue, might be more. Quizno's is pretty bad.

Calories: About 1850, and a struggle the whole day

Originally Posted by jillybean720:
[*]Healthy Choice smoked sausage w/sauce (grape jelly and chili sauce)[/LIST]--not sure what to serve with the smoked sausage...I'll possibly add some broccoli florets (or chopped broccoli) to the crock pot with the sauce and let it all simmer together.

Jill............. GRAPE JELLY AND CHILI SAUCE WITH SAUSAGE AND BROCCOLI????

Really? You are one crazy cook, girlie! :dizzy: ;)

Yesterday went poorly. I won't recount it here in detail but it was basically candy, soda, and fast food three times a day. The net effect was 3125 calories. Yikes! I did at least journal... hopefully I didn't forget any destruction along the way.

Thursday ~

Calories ~ 946
Water ~ 4 glasses
Exercise ~ walked x 1 - 20 minutes + walked 1/2 mile

Friday ~

Calories ~ 1080
Water ~ 3 glasses
Walked ~ x 2 - 20 min each

Actually grape jelly + chili sauce = BBQ sauce. ;)

I'm here for my flogging. TOM this week. I purchased fruit & brought it right here to eat during the week & that really worked in the mornings, but I have to bring a lunch & STAY HERE TO EAT IT. B/c even if I just go to the gas station for water, I will buy cookies & cheetos & the like. :(

today is going good:

1 egg mcmuffin, no ham
decaf & 1% milk
waterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

1 green apple
1 red pear
2 servings loso triscuits
2 wedges laughing cow lite

Skipped lunch & afternoon snack b/c we went out for my brother's birthday. There were 12 of us & we shared appetizers & the dessert (one piece of cake for the birthday boy, we each had one bite)

2-3 small pieces eggplant
2-3 pieces squid
1 piece calamari
1 slice tomato w/fresh mozz & basil on it :T
garlic bread
salad w/peppercorn parmesan dressing (dipped my fork in it)
portabello mushroom/spinach ravioli in white sauce w/asparagus & tomato pieces :love:
1 bite of my dad's swordfish
1 bite of my dad's spinach in olive oil & garlic
1 bite chocolate cake
3-4 glasses seltzer w/a lime

I drank maybe 2 gallons yesterday of water

Originally Posted by SuchAPrettyFace:
Actually grape jelly + chili sauce = BBQ sauce. ;)

REALLY? Somehow it just doesn't sound all that appetitizing! :p

Saturday ~

Calories ~ 1198
Water ~ 8 glasses
Exercise ~ walked x 3 - 20 min each

Sunday ~

Calories ~ 2656
Water ~ 3 glasses
Exercise ~ walked x 1 ~ 20 minutes

After stuffing myself yesterday, no surprise I wasn't that hungry today, I guess.

Saturday
Breakfast: Low-sugar oatmeal and a Morningstar breakfast patty
Snack: 3/4 oz of 2% LF cheese
Lunch: Healthy Choice bourbon steak
Snack: Sugar-free pudding
Dinner: Amy's organic enchilada dinner
Snack: 2 sheets of graham crackers

Calories: About 1100 -- low, but since I had over 3500 yesterday, I'm guessing I'll live...

Hi folks,

Get ready for a long one. I have been OP NOT since Tuesday. I have now identified that most of it has been (I think) emotional eating triggered by a converation with DF the Saturday before Easter.

(W)
Dinner from my last post turned out to be party noshing which I did OK with but went off the tracks later that night when I went out with DF near midnight (after parties) and had a huge plate of pancakes with fruit, butter and syrup (carb overload!!!) I am pretty sure this related at least in part to seeing and talking to an old boss and coworker at one of the parties. Talking to them brought up a lot of anxiety and self doubt. Why did I let him get to me!!! Talking about it to DF seemd to help.

(Th)
Too many carbs, or so it says in my points challenge post, but I don't remember the details.

(F)
OP day except for a stop at DQ!

(S)
Binge day with a DQ sundae and 3/4 of a coffee cake in addition to my normal food

Today
Nothing but diet jello and it is almost noon. (Shakes finger at self!)

Two decisions I have made while writing this are to revisit my converation with DF when I see him tomorrow night and to purchase a food journal today and start planning and preparing meals and snacks ahead of time. The later is something that I am not very good at (I have a relatively spontaneous life style) but I think will be worth the effort.

The good news, plenty of water on even my worst day and 1 hour of combined strength and cardio 4 of the last 5 days. It is relatively new for me to go off the rails food wise but still keep up my other healthy initiative efforts. I think it has to do with not beating myself up so much and just taking it in stride and doing my best to correct the course.

Wish me well as I try to inject a little more discipline into my eating effort with the food jounal and advanced planning.

Thanks for listiening. This really helped.

Denise

Originally Posted by shrinkingchica:
REALLY? Somehow it just doesn't sound all that appetitizing! :p

You can add a shot of mustard for a kick. I like dijon.

Good luck Denise!! Sounds like a good plan, I know you can do it! :hug:

SAPF, sounds like a good recipe. I am going to try that. BTW, I think you were the one to put up the crock pot pumpkin pudding recipe. I tried it. Looks icky, tastes great !!!!!

Wow, doldroms city. Another binge day yesterday and I have got to figure out how to get out of this cycle. I'm going to try to start exercising again, at least a little, and see if endorphins help.

Sunday
Breakfast: Frozen burrito
Lunch: 6" turkey and cheese Subway sub, with LF mayo, and some baked lays
Snack: 1 oz jelly beans
Dinner: 3 chicken fingers with 1 oz honey mustard dipping suace, a big serving of fries, Texas toast, sweet tea (16 oz or so)
Snack: Small chocolate milk shake at McDonald's

Calories: About 3250 (estimate)

I love that sauce with Swedish meatballs. :T I take it easy on the grape jelly and add English mustard for a bit extra bite. Then I usually go daft and eat too many. :lol:

Sounds as though you've got a pretty good handle on where you're going, Denise.

I'm really struggling with food choices right now. Staying with my sister, and sharing her kitchen, is problematic enough with my OCD issues, but it's my "kid in a sweetie shop" attitude that's really scuppering me. I'm so excited to have all the foods I've missed available to me, that all restraint has gone out of the window.

I've even been eating stuff I never bothered with before simply because it's there, and I know when I go back home it won't be available. I mean, yesterday I ate almost an entire bag of Thornton's toffee! :ink: At this rate, I'll be like a house end by the time I leave. :(

I usually tell myself I can have [whatever food is calling me] any time, and that helps me to either go easy on the portion or avoid it altogether. That strategy isn't working for me here. All I keep thinking is that it'll be another 4 or 5 years until I can taste fresh fish 'n' chips again, or decent bacon and sausage, or Walker's crisps, or a whole host of other things I just can't get in Canada. I know I'm being a whining brat, and I'm really embarrassed writing all this here, but I just can't seem to stop pigging out on rubbish. It's scary how quickly all my good habits are being mowed down by unhealthy choices. And make no mistake, I know this stuff isn't good for me, but I choose it anyway.

:Sigh:

Any :kickbutt: or advice or:frypan: gratefully accepted.

Ali,

I have been thinking about you. Mostly how hard you have worked to get where you are weight and health wise. I always look forward to your posts. I am not sure what to say. I have never been in the exact situation in which you are now although I did pig out on pastries when I spent a month in France with my sister. I know if you look inside yourself you will find a solution. It just might not be that easy right now to get solitude and look inward.

Maybe some long walks are in order. They help clear my head and sometimes if I am losing it in one area of my weight loss program bumping up the effort in another area helps get me back on track. It sounds like you are surrounded with a lot of stimulation. When I get overloaded like that ,I just don't function like normal. A little solitude and a walk usually helps.

:hug:

Denise

Oh, Ali...my wonderful journey buddy :hug:

I'm sorry you're having a hard time over there at home with all the goodies...boy, do I know how you feel!

I can't offer advice since I'm quite adept at stuffing my face as of late...but I can send you all my love, support, and understanding!!!

How long are you over there for???

xoxoxo
:hug:
Linda