But not at the moment. On Tuesday I felt so tired, I went to bed at 8.30, and did the same last night. I had a big row with Col, who was complaining he never sees me. As we were sitting on the couch all I could feel was fat, on my stomach on my thighs, and I just felt so depressed
Which is not a normal emotion for me.I'm fed up. I'm working my butt off, and I am not getting scale results. Yeah I know the scales aren't everything. But I haven't lost a pound this year. I know I'm building muscle, and I have lost a dress size, but I'm just so fed up. If I have to work this hard just to maintain, what do I have to do to lose.
I'm weighing in today. If I lose this week I'm gonna scream. I've had a week off the eating plan, doing crazy things, like having a chocolate bar if I want one, or a dessert at work
. Probably hitting 2000 calories a few days a week. It was a planned lapse and something I do regularly, at least 4 times a year. I guess I just needed to invite someone to my pity party.
And I keep hearing in my head what I would tell one of you all if you posted this, so I kinda know what I am gonna hear, and what I need to hear. Some of these wouldn't hurt either



