Hi there, Nikolas -- I welcomed you over at the exercise thread, but I'll welcome you here as well! You've accomplished so much -- and survived so much!

You must have acquired along the way some meaningful learnings about yourself: your strengths, you capabilities, and more.
I, too, have regained some weight (25 pounds) since December, as a result of health problems -- so we're in the same boat! It's all about rebuilding, right? We'll get there, as long as we're kind to ourselves and persevere.