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Originally Posted by nitrus29
Just having a moment of self doubt.....
I really want to lose weight.. and I know I am on the right track.. it is a slow process isn't it ?? I am just scared of failing at this.. What if I put in all this effort & change my lifestyle and 6 months later nothing changes?? 
I WANT to do this. I AM doing it. I just hope I see results !!
I will, won't I ?
YOU WILL!! We are close in height and start weight, and I felt SO MUCH the way you feel right now. ****, even now, when I think of where I'm trying to go, it doesn't even fit in my head. But the super cool thing is, it does not have to. You do not need to believe you can get to your goal weight. In my opinion, you have to believe that there are better choices you can make to be healthier and happier (more good, less junk; move more, etc) and do that.
Just pick one change to make in your life at a time. Up until just a few weeks ago, I focus ONLY on diet changes. And I made them small. Sugar beverages turned into flavored waters and ice tea. Cause, little me only drinks iced tea. Then I worked on breakfasts. I traded in my donuts for whole grains and protein. Cause, thats what little me has for breakfast. And those small changes from Nov to now, has taken me down 45lbs.
I say, if everything feels like too much work, back off and take ONE change at a time, master it, then move to the next. I know its trite, but it really is building a different relationship with food and movement. And soon enough, you'll be down 50lbs, shopping in the "non-womens/plus" department and thinking, "what the heck, I just moved to iced tea?!"
Not to say there arent days I have words with my scale and I just want to see that DANG number LOWER! But, that is just the RESULT of the changes Ive made, and those changes are what matter. Do the work, the scale takes care of itself.
I hope thats helpful. You can do this. Its just making up your made that you deserve nothing less.