So, took two days off for my birthday..... Two days has now become a solid week due to the fact I had so much birthday cake left over. I can't say no to birthday cake..... It's like saying no to free money even though there are usually horrible nasty strings tied to free money. In this case, no weight gain, but no weight loss either.
Anywho, the evil mean cake is gone, mostly eaten by my dad and hubby (seriously, I had like two pieces of my own frikkin cake LOL ). Have I been a good girl and gotten back on the train, found my window seat, or my bar stool, and got things moving again?
Oh jeez.
No, I have not. I think I'm out of coal. Or electricity. Or gas.... I'll stop there.
This week has seen every single day start with super good intentions, some days even making it to dinner, before some stupid inner part of me just snaps and goes, "OMG, you just have to eat those french fries, or that egg roll, or all that rice!!!" Thankfully my inner saboteur isn't pushing me for sweets yet save for the nightly bowl of cereal, which isn't good at all when you've just consumed a T-bone with french fries or a nice take out from the Chinese place.
Why o why do we do this????? I go to the kitchen, I look at the fridge and see the broccoli that sings songs of thinness to me, the broccoli that I love so much, and then right next to it, some jacka** in the house has put a tub of chicken salad that goes, broccoli is for p******. And like a whupped puppy, I turn a pout to it and go, "you're right. You taste so much better."
Sigh.
The fact I haven't gained anything is the only reason I haven't turned into a depressed sad little panda upset with her poor choices in life who is contemplating a massive screw it all break down. The fact I haven't lost just makes me want to order the pizza instead of the salad for lunch because seriously, why not????
I'm trying every trick in the book today to make my will power pick back up, but finding little success. Not even baby shopping is working..... It's very close to nature's visitor too, so that's not helping the food choices and it's definitely not helping my mood.
The upside for today is the fact the hubby is working and I am on my own for lunch and I have so much to do that I'll be too busy to do more than grab a salad or a sub. Or a pizza.......
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
What do you guys do when you find your motivation has decided to go on extended leave???