Today was really stressful for me due to a doctor's appointment among other things. I had just hoped I had gotten past the binging phase of things. The sad part is, I used the food as a reward for the day going good with the doctor and payment of my visit. The whole time, the small voice in my head was like "Are you crazy? This is no reward! This is junk and unhealthy and it is foods like this that made you morbidly obese!" But with bite after bite, I drowned that voice out and I dunno, I am disappointed that I let myself do that.
Mary, yes, I have maintained for the past 9 months or so and just recently I lowered my daily intake to under 1500 in an attempt to get to my goal.
Once again, thanks a lot to everyone whom has responded for the understanding, support and encouragement.
I just wanted to say hang in there! Everyone has an off day.
And I just wanted to say that you were one of the first to welcome me when I started posting, and to give me encouragement when I reached a mini-goal, and that has meant so much, whether you knew it or not. So thank you!
And you are such an inspiration! So thank you for that too!
I just wanted to try to give you some encouragement back if I could. You can get right back on plan!
And I hope everything went well at the doctor's office!
The day after the binge is the important one: how surely you get back on the wagon. Come and report that too, because that is the sign of a healthy attitude to food. As others have said, even 'normal' people have binge days. Provided you don't do it again the next day, then you are proving you're normal.
I haven't had a binge this Plan yet - but I'm only on Day #73! - but that's not because I've come to a healthy relationship with food but because I'm terrified. Not so good. You've got the chance now to prove you have conquered food! Go to it!
As you have already been told, we all have those days. It is true that even people who have never had weight issues have binge days, my hubby does - just put the boy in front of some sushi!
I know that today will be a much better day for you because you are strong and you can get back to plan and put yourself where you want to be.
Sorry about your binge. I've been there and done that and it always sucks to work 3 days to get off what I gained in 30 minutes.
I do have a hard question I'd like to ask though. And I apologise in advance if this comes out wrong or if you take it personal. Did you go out and actually purchase your binge food, or did you send your boyfriend out to get it? (The last couple confession you made, you have mentioned he brought you the food) IF you sent him out for it, I think maybe you should make a strict rule that you NEVER ask him to be you co-dependant again. Only allow yourself to eat junk food that you actually went out and bought for yourself. This way he's off the hook. It not fair to him to have him be apart of your food issues. Know what I mean?
OK, we have learned that you are human. It is a reminder to us that we can't let our guard down. I am with the others here, forgive yourself and move on. This will only become a problem if it keeps reoccurring.
I have to remind myself all the time that today is important. For so many years I had binge after binge, telling myself that I would stop tomorrow. Then tomorrow became today and I would binge and then tell myself that I would stop tomorrow. And repeated and repeated and repeated....... until I could barely walk.
Today is important. I have every confidence that this was a one time deal with you and you will continue to inspire us!
