Hello everyone! I've been away from 3FC for a long time.. and it's showing on my waistline. Because I watch my little sister (she's 7 1/2 and I'm 25) every weekend, I thought it would be fun for us to get season passes to the local amusement park. I've only brought her once!
Things were going well and we were having fun. However, I found myself avoiding certain rides for fear of not fitting! Then we went on this spinning/swaying boat ride and I was horribly embarassed when I almost didn't make it. I looked across from me as a family of four shared 2 seat belts; I couldn't squeeze my little sister in with mine.... then the dreaded lap bar. The kid couldn't get it to click down and started to say something when I stopped him, forced it down myself, and said, "I'm fine." LOL. I think he thought it wise to move on to the next row. After the ride I was terrified to try to go on anything else. ... heck, I've avoided the bumper cars for years for fear of not fitting, but this is just sad.
Ever since then I've been avoiding the place like the plague. To make it all feel worse, I've agreed to go with my mom and little sister to Disney World in December. My Mom has cancer and has for a few years now... she doesn't have much energy these days but it is something she always promised my little sister we would do... so we are going. The thing is, I know that a large part of why my Mom wants me to go (aside from the family fun thing) is because she knows she won't have energy to do as much and I will be the one to take my sister out to the theme parks and such part of the time. Think of all those rides... eek!
Don't even get me started on the plane ride there... I love planes but the last time I flew (20lbs lighter than now) I couldn't buckle up. I couldn't bear asking for one of those extenders... luckily I was in a window seat and so I was able to conceal the fact that my buckle wasn't clicked in place (terrible I know!). I barely fit in the seat though and had to turn at a weird angle so I didn't feel like I was crushing the guy next to me.
Clearly this is a time for change and action... but I'm just feeling so overwhelmed about it. You lose twenty and gain thirty... I feel like I'm drowning inside myself and don't even know where to begin to look to find myself again.
Hmmm.... well thanks for reading. I needed a good vent. LOL.