Ok so this is a bit random and probably quite specific to me, but I just need to vent so feel free to leave me to ramble!
Ok it's my kickboxing grading tomorrow!
I'm well prepared I can do everything. I'm a bit shaky on my back kicks (well quite frankly they suck!) and I really really want to practice practice practice today. Well I'm at work - and the disabled toilet is too small to practice in!
I've decided I might squeeze some side kicks in now and again when I go to the loo!
Then when I get home I want to really go at it hammer and tong for an hour or so. But what if they're still not great!? I'm so MAJORLY annoyed at myself for not doing more during the week (I was really really tired on Wednesday so I didn't do any practice).
So hopefully that will be ok, but my ambition! God I really need to do something about my attitude because I'll end up a nervous wreck tomorrow! I really really REALLY want to get a grade 1 in this belt (which is basically an A* type grade) but I know it's not very probable that I will acheive it! Especially with the back kicks being as they are.
I know tomorrow I'll probably be "fine" but - and here's the REAL problem - I want to be MORE THAN FINE! And I know it's highly unlikely so I'm going to end up really upset when I get my grade 2 (which is ok - I mean that's a pass and it means I can do the next belt).
Oh heck and to top it ALL off my sciatica is playing up really badly from last night's class (where I did the splits) so it hasn't been right since!
I'm going to stock up on Deep Heat and ibuprofen gel and general massive pain killers and see what happens!
Oh I really want my 1!