Feeling more self conscious now that I'm trying to lose weight
Is it me or has anyone else felt more self conscious after you start to lose weight than you did when you were heavier? It kind of feels like I had blinders on and didn't really see myself in the mirror, but now that I've admitted that I am too heavy and have started to lose weight, I just want it off now, and I feel too uncomfortable in others about the way I look that I did before. Like I'm naked or exposed or something. So the result is that even though I have been overweight for years, now is when I am suddenly feeling embarrassed and want the weight off *right now*. Part of me feels like it's ridiculous to be so uncomfortable around others now because I've been way heavier. On the other hand I cringe when I think of myself thirty pounds ago, oblivious/intentionally blind to how I looked. Anyone else had this feeling?
I also hate my clothes. Every day I get up and look in my closet and don't want to put any of those clothes on, but I refuse to buy nicer clothes in my current size. I don't know if I'm committing to losing the weight or just handing myself a punishment for being this size. Perhaps it's a little of both.
What do you tell yourself, to encourage yourself to be comfortable in social situations? Do you go out and buy clothes in your current size, or just hit the gym harder?