thanks ladies!!
i know it will come off, i just have to not give up, and im just tired of "almost" getting to goal and gaining back. i never was a yoyo dieter i just kinda had my baby's back to back and then when i had bri in 2001 i realized i was at that 200 pound mark so i started watched my calories and got to 165 in 3 months.
then found out i was prego with our last son. i didn't gain it all back but enough .
then i lost again and gained it back again and now here i am. so technically that is yo yoing, so now im just focusing on eating healthy for my body for my kids to have a good example and im really just trying to recognize when im stressed upset or even happy...... to recognize and deal with these feelings without food.
im not 22 anymore just trying to look hot! it goes much deeper, i want to be healthy in my body and emotions and i i have little ones that mimic me.
me looking hot is just a by product
, no really though if i focus on that i Will fail. if i focus on what is really important to me... well then failing is not an option, that's just the way it is, my health and kids are too important to me.
ill just be happy when the day comes that food doesn't consume my life as much as it does now. God has too much for me to do to be consumed with this my whole life, not to say that i wont have to be cautious that i don't fall into old habits the rest of my life, but i do know this is a learning and healing process and defiantly a season that it wont always be like this and i am looking forward to that. its like the lyrics to one of my favorite songs "You gotta face the clouds To find the silver lining ..." that is soooo true, iv been trough so much in my life and it truly has made me who i am today... strong, forgiving, loving, and faithful, and completely imperfect and that's ok too..
wow i am sooo sorry this is so long. it was not suppose to be. thank you ladies, you all encourage me so much!