Stop that way of thinking right now !!!
You are a wonderful woman and do not talk about ending your life. My father in law did that, and it was a sad sad decision. He ended his life and ruined his entire family's lives.
Look at all of us struggling to lose weight and YOU my dear have lost 30 pounds. That is incredible! Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and kick his *** to the curb. You do not need a man that is not loving and supportive and kind. There are so many wonderful men looking for wonderful women. You go girl!!! Today, lets begin again. A new outlook on life, a new body, a new waredobe, a new car, a new bikini for a wonderful singles cruise that you will treat yourself to next summer. Put your focus on YOU and YOUR goals. You hear me??????????????????