Welcome Back SoCal
You have just the right attitude! It's so hard to get hung up on the weight - I think that's why I have failed so many times in the past. It's about so much more though!
I'm on SBD to:
1. wake up in the morning and feel gggrrrreeeeaaaattt
2. be able to keep up with my daughter
3. bend over and touch my toes
4. bring down my cholesterol
5. fall in love with my 2 story house - and not dread the stairs
6. prove to myself that i can do it
7. put myself first
Good luck and welcome back. It's a long journey - but once we get there it will be amazing.