Well, I have been coming here daily. I have been reading and feeling guilty for even doing that. I was doing SO good. I have Florida coming and I was very in tune with what I needed and then the smallest thing happened. I discovered my scale was off BY ALOT. Ever since then no matter the pep talk I have been eating. I know that is the trigger because that is when it started. I have fallen into my old patterns and wow so easy to do.
My husband tho he loves and supports me tends to eat along with me which makes it sick as this sounds FUN! However the old me would have felt NO guilt and would have just said..oh well this me..the current me is sickened while I am eating! Knowing for sure what I am suppose to be doing and not doing it and not knowing how to stop it. It almost feels like an addiction! I would like to begin again but quite honestly I am deathly afraid of hopping on that scale. How can I begin and feel ok with myself? How do you pick yourself up and get a move on again with out the stupid pity party!! I am feeling so frustrated and after about a month I think its time I come clean and ask for HELP!!! phew I kinda feel better now that I have spilled my guts. Maybe I will go to the store and pick up some healthy food for the begining once again.
Thank you all for letting me do this and taking the time to read it