Thank you everyone for the hugs.. i feel a bit better,, i need to go through reasons for why im feeling this way and deal with them
nitrus thank you for your kind words
and you're right,, id feel worse if i gave in and ate those cupcakes, because that would make me slip completely and undo all the hard work!!
boatingmommy thank you soooooooo much for the lines that you shared... why be dominated by something as trivial as taste in the mouth that only lasts for a few seconds, but the harmful effects of consuming it can last forever... ill be re-reading these lines many times in the next few days to help me get over the thought of unravelling all my hard work by eat rubbish,,,, i cant be controlled by food, im stronger than this!!!! thank you again,,, you guyz are amazing!!!!