hello my coaches,
feeling stronger and better now than i have in recent weeks. you keep saying to yourself "this too shall pass" but it's always kind of a shock when it actually does! had a moment of clarity friday night. let me splain...my mother is treating me to the vacation of a lifetime this december. we're spending 3 weeks in india on a tauck tour (
www.tauck.com). i could never afford anything like this on my own, and because my fabulous, amazing mama is making it possible, i'm going to see things i can't even imagine. anyway, friday night we had dinner (indian, of course) with some friends of hers who went a few months ago. after dinner, they showed us their vacation slides. they were great - i'm even MORE excited to be going, because i hadn't been thinking specifically about all the shopping opportunities but boy oh boy I AM NOW. all of which, yeah, great, but what does that have to do with beck? was looking at this family in their pictures in front of the taj mahal, at their hotel, smiling and hugging, etc. and realized that i never look at vacation pictures THAT HAVE ME IN THEM because i find them so depressing. i also realized that thanks to beck strategies that are really ingrained now, my recent backslide hasn't made me any fatter. i'm also 15 lbs from the thinnest i've been as an adult, a time when i felt great and thought i looked pretty fierce, too. so. renewed vigor and a kick-in-the-pants new advantage: feel good about being thinner for my fabulous india vacation pictures. i leave in three months. five pounds a month, and i'm there. it's so doable, so feasible, and i'm in such good shape now exercise is a pleasure, so there. yesterday morning i re-aligned myself with my diet plan (flexible to accommodate the upcoming trip to telluride.) and i've been 100% on plan since friday night, when i gave my leftovers to my mother.
more than anything, it was just remembering what a boost i got from being lighter, and realizing that it's not as far away as i thought.
so, thank you again, dear coaches! for supporting me and just being so brilliant in general.
dh is still struggling mightily, and it's painful. but i have to recognize the limitations of what i can do for him and leave the rest to him and his higher self to do what he needs to do.
cholekai, welcome, welcome, welcome! your story is fascinating. are you also posting to the surgery forum?
onebyone, have a fantastic time at the gym! looking forward to hearing how that goes.
bill, i have a theory about amounts. if if there's one of something off plan, you can ignore it, because it's just eating something off plan. if there's a lot of it, there's that thrill of knowing that you could use it like a drug to anesthetize or get your high (which you can't do with a single cookie or brownie or whatever.) when there's a sh%*pile of it, it overwhelms you and makes you think about what that food actually does to you. (e.g. reminds me what my butt looks like.) that's just a theory, of course.
hiya robin! how do you make your broccoli soup? it sounds good!
freer! what a great phrase - "the victory slip." guilty of that one too. good note to self!
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shrinkin! i enjoy reading your pool reviews. makes me want to swim! i just can't seem to deal with keeping up with my depilatory needs (not optional for me if i'm going to be in public in a swimsuit.) are you training for anything in particular?
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goodnuff - you are absolutely correct! we got nothing but time.
thanks again - y'all are just the best. i'm not 100% back yet, but i will be. for sure.