For the past 4 days I've eaten to the point of getting sick. till my stomach hurts. I know it's bad, but I can't stop. and i've been doing so good and now i'm just gaining it back. my stomach hurts so much and i'm so mad i have no control. i feel helpless and defeated. my own mind is working against me. it convinces me its ok to just keep going when my body is screaming to stop. it convinces me it needs to get more in because i'll start kicking in to gear tomorrow.
well i'm sick of waiting for tomorrow. i want to be happy and healthy and skinny today. i am so depressed about this it makes me hate myself