Hidey hi chickiedees! (And chickiedoos if there are any menfolk here)
I've just joined this forum today after browsing through it for a couple of days so I thought the best place to start off on a new forum is in the intro section!
So... About me.
Well I'm Lunaaabelle, ok, no I'm not really but let's pretend
I've just turned 25 at the beginning of the month, I have a wonderful boyfriend who I've been dating since January 2015 and we're planning to move in together around June time! (Exciting right!) Currently I live in my childhood home with my younger sister, we get on really well she's like my best friend <3
I love to scrapbook, make cards, play The Sims, read fantasy and romance novels, get out into nature, read Tarot, binge watch tv shows and practise my photography. I'm also super interested in cosplay - I've only done one so far but would love it do more!
I am obsessed with Disney and have the soundtracks in my car, I also love female fronted bands like Evanescence, Within Temptation and recently, Sleigh Bells.
I'm also at my heighest ever recorded weight. Hence the reason I am here.
My weight journey has been long and painful. At a very early age I have disliked myself, not liking my body, my face, my hair, or who I am. As a teenager this manifested it's ways that I'm not sure can be discussed here?
At 14 I became depressed and started hurting myself.
At 15 I started starving myself and competing with The Ana Girls. I also got my first boyfriend.
At 17 I was so thin that I had bruises on my ribs from sleeping on my front. I was also at my lowest and was forced into therapy.
At 18 I failed to get into uni and my boyfriend (still the same one from age 15) started becoming abusive in a number of ways.
At 20, just before my birthday, he dumped me. I was relieved.
At 21 my new, much older boyfriend, said if I didn't stop hurting myself he would leave me. I replaced the pain I was causing with food. And this is where binge-eating replaced restriction.
I have been a binge-eater ever since. I clearly have never learnt to deal with my triggers, and instead eat until they are quiet. I am now able to recognise this though so I am hoping that in time I can conquer it.
At 22 he dumped me as my mental health was "too hard" for him.
At 23 I met my current boyfriend, and have gained lots of realtionship weight but I love him and we're very happy together.
I now weight 206lb. My lowest weight at 17 was 124lb.
I have decided after seeing recent holiday snaps that now is the time to change, for good, to be healthy as well as attractive.
I want to learn to get over my water phobia in the long run and learn to swim, I want to start Roller Derby and Pole lessons, I want to complete the C25K programme. Right now, I'm just starting small with going to the gym on a more regular basis!
I'm hoping to make friends here, and hopefully build a support network.
This is a little snapshot into who I am, I hope you like her.
Well This Seems Like A Good Place To Start!
It's interesting how tied in your relationships are to your weight. I'm not sure if there is a huge correlation for me, but I guess I did sort of let myself go with my current boyfriend, he is really nice and loves to cook haha. I'm really excited to get back to 145 lbs which is how much I weighed when he met me. Right now I feel like I am more than he bargained for lol.
I'll also admit that as a simmer, I've passed my prime... I played, completed, wrote, and published a legacy and a WYDC, but after that, the fire kind of died down. I mostly left the sims community and have been playing much less. I still play, though. 