Hello everyone, thanks so much for reading. I look forward to being a member of this community. First a little about me.
I joined I can't remember, maybe a year or two ago, but then fell off the wagon, so to speak, and gave up on weight loss.
I have finally decided that FINALLY it's time. I have been wanting to lose weight for the past maybe 7 years, but my food issues and compulsive over eating and emotional eating have just gotten worse and worse. I am 25 years old and about to be 26 in 2 months. I have met the LOVE OF MY LIFE and am SO happy and we are getting married in January. I am so excited to start my life with him and I am actually moving to a different country to be with him, so right now I am not able to be with him due to visa issues and haven't seen him in 4 months and can't return to see him for another 3. I miss him so much, and I am so stressed and depressed right now and it is just making me feel worse and worse each day, which sadly leads me to over eat
I've been having a pity party all by my lonesome and it isn't doing me any good. I am only gaining weight and feeling more miserable each day.
Also, because of how much sugar and fat I eat, I am breaking out very bad on my face and I now have quite bad acne. I have always had horrible skin, but sugar and stress seem to make it worse. Also, my boyfriend and I would lke to have children, and we want to start trying in 1 year. I would like to be thin and in shape, so that I can have an easy and healthy pregnancy and also, so that I do not just keep layering on the weight after each child. That is a fear of mine.
I have been the definition of yo yo dieting for the past 10 years. I used to be a very very naturally thin child, but then I just started to have a horribly unhealthy relationship with food. Some other bad things happened in my life around the age of 18 and my issues with food just spun out of control. I am now overweight and have been for probably 7 years. Sorry I am rambling, if you have read up to this point, thank you so much. I just want to get healthy. My family has a history of high cholesterol and heart disease and I just don't want to have a heart attack at a young age like my mother (thankfully, she survived). However, it has scared me, but apparently not enough to change.
I am a major binge eater, and I am like an addict in some senses. I say I will never do it again, and for example, like tonight, I went on a drive to McDonalds, which is like a 40 minute round trip from my house and I got 2 burgers, fries, a shake and 3 cookies and I ate all of it until i was so full I could barely move, then I promised I would never do it again, but then like half an hour later when I wasn't so full, I already was thinking about eating more food. It's so sad, I just want to help myself, so that I can finally be happy. Like, I mentioned, thanks so much for reading. I just have no one else who understands, and no one I can talk to, my mom buys me the junk food, then makes fun of my weight.
So, I guess my new effort starts today, it's past midnight here, haven't eaten anything, I did a small 10 minute dance workout, and I guess hopefully new good habits start today. I can do this!! I plan to use this forum as a great support system!