i'm not quite sure where to start, but i'd really like to thank all of you ladies here. i'm in awe of you.
long time lurker, first time poster. i'm Stephanie, sixteen years old, and obviously having some weight issues.
my weight has always fluctuated with stresses in my life. i'm still a kid, but circumstance forcibly changed my eating habits. my mother used to bring home fast food every night, and the pounds just went on. then when i was maybe 12 i took it upon myself to lose quite a bit of weight. i had been chubby, always taller, especially, than everyone else. i've never really felt quite...girly. in my appearance.
over the past few years, again, with personal troubles, the weight crept back on. i was at my heaviest 2 years ago, and i wish i could tell you how much i weighed, but really was terrified of the scale. not unlike many others, i grew to be obsessive.
two years later, here i am. at my heaviest i had a 43 inch waist and 46 inch hips. if memory serves...it's something i want to forget, to be honest.
i was weighed at the doctor's two months ago, and feeling confident, i asked my weight. i didn't think it was in pounds, disbelief. 230 pounds, at 5'7. i bawled, i screamed. at the nurses. in hindsight, the thought of me screaming at a nurse is somewhat funny, but it was a very real issue...
for the past few months, my measurements have been 36-33-39. i thought i was chubby, but my doctor, an old man, was a complete *******. my self esteem has been non-exsistent since then, really...
so, that's me!
i can't wait to hear from all your lovely ladies...!
Lol, self image.
