Well, I kicked off the year with a bang. I lost almost 30 inches and around 15 pounds. I don't know what happened and I'm not going to make excuses but I got off track....really bad. I have put ALL of the weight back on and ALL of the inches back on and have decided enough is enough.
I have been dating an amazing guy for several months. We hit it off from the get go, and it felt great to have someone who could see past the size of me and actually love me for who I am. He has recently brought up the idea of marriage. This was my first kick in the butt to make me really decide that I am going to do this. This forum was amazing the first time around and I plan on checking in several times a day to keep me motivated.
I am around 330 pounds. I plan on going home tonight and checking the scale to see for sure, as i've been avoiding the scale.
I hope to get down to 130-140 pounds eventually. I am a size 28/30 in pants and am wearing a 3x-4x shirt, usually 4x so that they don't cling to every roll I have. I know curves are good...but I don't think they mean those kind of curves.
My problem with weight loss is I get bored and discouraged very easily. I am getting the steps moving for bariatric surgery, but my insurance requires so much that surgery won't be for at least a year. In the next year I am going to do everything I can to get myself back into a healthly lifestyle so that if/when I do have the surgery, I will be used to eating small healthy portions, exercising daily, even if it's just a short walk, and all in all taking better care of myself.
I'm hoping to find some awesome support here because without it I know I will never be able to tackle this. Also, I have yahoo messanger if anyone wants to keep in contact. I love having friends to keep me motiviated!
got off track--trying again
Dhani 
