I told myself that I ever went off protocol I would never write it on here. I want you all to think of me as a hard worker working on my weigh goals, but I really blew it yesterday and have to get it off my chest....
It is the first time I cheated since I started in December and I feel so horrible and so angry with myself....
The day started off great with a 5K (which I ran in 32:24!) but then everyone stopped in for a beer to celebrate. Usually I say no thanks, but I had one.... and then another.....
Then my friends and I went to Newport to celebrate St. Patty's Day. and again I usually just drink water with lemon, but instead I had another two Guinness and THEN after all that horrible beer.... I actually ate a sandwich and didn't take off the BREAD!!!!! YIKES!!!! WHAT WAS I THINKING!!!!
I got on the scale this morning and gained a whole 3.5lbs.
I am depressed and feel sluggish and feel so ANGRY with myself. And mostly embarrassed. I know I am better than that.
I know that many of you have said that once you get kicked out of ketosis it is impossible to get back in to it. What if I ruined everything?
I have worked so hard and I feel like I really let myself down.
I am just venting. I know that I need to pick up my head up and just start back 100% today. WHICH I AM!
Oh hum. I'm such an idiot!