Thank you everyone! For listening to my vent.
Like I said, it was the right thing to do, but that did not make it any easier.
Our other 2 dogs are still a bit bewildered about why he left and did not come back. But they are getting better.
I'm also feeling better. Still sad, but it's ok.
He had a good life, was treated well, and didn't have to suffer any lingering illness.
3+ year maintainer.
The human body is capable of amazing things! But without the mind, it is nothing. Get your mind in gear and the body will follow!
Be selfish about caring for yourself, you deserve it!