Hello people!
Well yesterday my pc was in for repair and did I ever miss it....it truly is a part of my day to check in here and my e-mails from family and friends and my trivia game I am addicted to........well I give myself 30 mins a day give or take!
I had a not so great day yesterday.....first rotten day in months....I was trying to figure out what was different about the day....it was not hormonal....nothing really happened....I was up at at it and well on my way to a great day but then I sat down to work on an album that I am doing for my mom and dad....adding a few final touches and I think I was remembering things from my past....hurts, disappointments as a child and worked a bit on my page of my dd son Zach who died when he was two and all my other neices and nephews who are alive and well (thank goodness)....and I think that is what it was.......I was feeling sorry for my self....for my past pains...which I am sure we all have and for the loss of my son Zach when I wanted him so very much. I find when I have days like that I just freeze up....I stayed close to home...did not walk or exercise even though I have been enjoying that and I ate ice cream and dill pickle chips which I didn't even really enjoy.
That get's me to my point about Dr. Phil (I read the posts from yesterday earlier today).....being over weight in my mind is not just about knowing about nutrition and exercise....I believe that people who are moderately to quite overweight do have emotional issues and so in that way that is how a counsellor can help....do I think Dr. Phil is the be-all end-all?....no I do not. Do I think that he is telling any of us stuff we haven't already thought of?...no I do not. Do I think that sometimes he is right when he says just get on with it and do the right thing if it is best for your marriage and kids.....yes often I do. I don't think that any weight plan is going to work if you do not deal with the emotional issues underneath....I believe that one 'addiction' may be conquered (be it food), but another one will take over...until you deal with your issues....alcohol, codependency, dysfunctional relationships etc
For me I know I have issues and I accept that....I don't spend a lot of time analyzing why I do what I do.....I try to have healthy positive people around me. I try to have a routine and push myself to do the right things even when I would rather not...I try to do for others and treat others how I want to be treated. I accept myself for all the good and the bad and continue to work away at living a good life......I dont' have all the answers, nor does Dr. Phil or anyone else. I am the only person I can take care of and work on......and I continue to do the best at that I can.
Anyhow that is my sharing for the day....I am off to the shower and going for a walk with my friend.
Hope everyone has a good day and good luck with your own personal journey....only you can choose which way you are going today! Me too!
Hugs to you all
Eliz