I feel so down on myself and I'm freaking out. I'm 22 years old, have one semester left in college, and don't know what I'm doing with the rest of my life. I feel like I don't know the first thing about being an adult, and lately it's been causing me awful anxiety attacks. My stomach starts to hurt and I have trouble breathing. I think about all the things I have to do and all the things I don't know how to do, and I start convincing myself I will never be able to do any of it and I'll never find love and I'll never be happy and I just want to die.
The way I deal with anxiety is escapism. I'm an extreme daydreamer and binge eater. Lately I feel like the only way out of my panic is to lose myself in something, like a fantasy about suddenly striking it rich (lol... except really, this is what calms me down)... and eating until I'm so sick I can't think anymore.
Then, of course, I come back to reality and the cycle continues.
I really don't know what I need right now. Just some love. Or help. Can someone who feels stable and secure in where they are tell me how they do it? How do you deal with life obstacles without getting so wound up? I just don't get it and it makes me feel so incapable of changing.