Oh and sweet pea do not kennel your dogs. I just had a good friend kennel her dog for the first time about a month ago. The dog got sick while it was there, and so the kennel took it to a vet in a bad part of town...the dog ended up dying. And the kennel is now charging my friend the 2000.00 for emergency surgery that they authorized the vet to do. She says she wont pay it so they kept the dogs blanket, collar etc...very sad. She barely got the actual dog back so she couldl hold a service for it. Because of this I will never kennel my dog. Worst part is another coworker of mine also had her dog die that week from being seen at the same vet. You have to be so careful nowadays!
Had a great WI today,,,had a good talk with my Dr. we talked about how unhappy I am at work and how close Ive come to binging pretty much each after work. Her suggestion is,,to get my dog and go for a walk,,,don't even change my work clothes just go. Even if its only 10 minutes. I just love that idea. and will be using it. But I also will be looking for a new job. Once Im back from holidays. We leave for Florida Monday, can't wait. Our dog will be going to the country club pet resort..aka kennel.
Kate,,,as Elizabeth said,,,there are people dying from smoking and if they could quit,,,they would of years ago. Don't be hard on yourself,,,you are going through withdrawls. If you can keep busy,,,don't do too much of the things you used to do when you would be lighting up alot. Avoid that for awhile.
Last edited by da fat n da furious; 08-16-2006 at 11:52 PM.
just popping in. i am a bit run down so i won't answer everyone's posts. i did want to say to kate wow - sometimes your posts are like looking in a mirror. a lot of similarities with our alcohol and other aspects of our lives. of course some of that just comes down to a compulsive personality but it is heartening to know i am not alone in the world even though there are plenty of times it feels that way
i will come back and write a "proper" post later.
right now i am relaxing with a book - 12 sharp by janet evanovich. i needed something totally different to relax. the other book i am reading is a memoir on self harm and that is a bit hard going. i get quite ill when i read about her cutting herself!
Mmmmh, should I change thread or not?? I am binge free (according to my definition of a binge), but I did a bit of unhealthy eating yesterday to calm my nicotin carvings down.....Itīs so hard!! And I am a bit whiny today.
Iīll write more soon....
Kate
P.S: I have a family!! My binge beast, the scale monster and the newborn nicotin monster. I know that feeling isolated is bad, but I would love feeling apart from those three....
Under on calories but so not in control of my eating last night. Made some really poor decisions. Its so rough when I do this I feel like I need to be punished. Like I need to see like 3 extra lbs pop up on the scale just to show me the error of my ways and teach me a lesson.
angelia - I think going for a walk with the pooch is a great idea as well. And not changing into workout clothes really eliminates and excuse for you not to go. Your pup will benefit from it too! '
sweet pea - I so could not read that book, life is depressing enough for me sometimes.
kate - I know what you mean about not bingeing per say but eating junk...That was me last night.
Sweet_Pea,,,how is the book? Janet Evanovich is one of a couple of my favorite authoresses.
Kate, is there a gum you can chew? Soemthing that you can take that will help you through the worst part of withdrawls?
Ive always had an all or nothing personality. When I was small I would spend hours outside,,,more or less hiding from my family. Then I got into sports. Couldn't just be a good athlete,,,I pushed to go to the Olympics. (didn't go, didn't even make the Canada Games) But in 4 years I worked myself hard,,,body fat was in the single digits. And one day it all blew up in my face,,,my coach that I trusted,,,walked away with everything. I didn't know all that was involved,,,infact no one did so I went from working out 4-6 hrs a day to NOTHING. I took up partying...within 2 years I was doing the blackout drinking...took a good friend dying for me to clean up. Within 6 months I met my future husband, one of the things he said was, he liked that I was so innocent...*snort he wouldn't have reconized me then 6 months before. Over the years I have done some really addictive things,,,Right now Im not doing anything but putting my weight loss first and foremost. No hiding behind a crazy schedule...its all about me now. I think so far this is the healthiest addiction I have had.
going to go make a new thread,,,what was/are your addictions.
i've been on a reading binge - i finished 12 sharp (evanovich) and today i read judge & jury (patterson).
angelia i was a bit disappointed with 12 sharp. it was less of a mystery and more or a love story. altho there was a kidnapping and other "danger" the main story was her being torn between 2 lovers and wanting both ranger and morelli. there was some good humour in that and i was faintly jealous that she had 2 hotties in pursuit but i was really looking forward to the twists of a mystery. and at the end well don't want to give the plot away but the bad guy that almost killed her is on the loose and they let her go home alone . i mean honestly. of course it wouldn't be safe. it was like one of those movies where you're screaming don't go in the dark room with the bodies that have just been carved up. sheesh!
maybe we should run a poll - ranger or morelli? i think i'd go for ranger
my health is still not great. getting strange hot and cold feelings in my hands and feet and still a bit dizzy. haven't picked my prescription yet for iron pills. as for the hypertension... i guess i just have to slow down and relax a bit.
am a bit sad about my birthday. no party. in fact looks like i'll be alone on my 40th. i just wanted to run out tonight and get *(*&^&^ (= fatty/fried takeaways). i still might haven't quite decided. i had a healthy lunch if you don't count having dessert before and after. if it was possible to get delivery in the country i'd have ordered something up in a flash.
oh angelia what an amazing story. what sports did you do? i am definitely the all or nothing personality. one of my diagnoses is bipolar. but my specialists can't all agree on that!!! however the all or nothing is one of the reasons for them thinking that. i just think i'm achievement oriented. if i was getting deep i'd say i want achievement and to be noticed as a substitute for not being loved and noticed by people i wanted to love me. a way of getting past rejection
stephie - you've punished yourself enough with the guilt!!! you deserve to move on and start a fresh day without that baggage
kate - i am the same. truthfully even on my binge free days i overeat and i eat junk food. it's hard to get it all together. good on you for quitting smoking wahoo
elizabeth. even if you have binged on meat it sounds like you've still made huge progress. that's incredible that you've knocked your cravings back so much. sugar was clearly a major trigger for you and now that you know that it will make it easier to plan your food
Binge free this week..Ate all the junk up last week and haven't been back to the grocery store since last week so I've done great since Sunday when it was gone. I really want to eat some junk right now but since it isn't in the house (and the store here is already closed because it closes at 7 PM) I can't. :-)
HEY!!! I'm back! I did not stay away in purpose i Promise!! we have been without internet for 10 days!! TEN DAYS!! YIKES. A storm hit in our area and ripped the roof off some buildings, including our internet provider. then it took our wireless internet tower (both the main one and the one in my town) and twisted them and snapped them like branches...SCARY stuff. Our house(s) are fine. Still not in the new house but everything is going as planned. The appraisal is the hold up now, the house has to appraise the right amount or we lose it all
Still doing OK on eating, wish i was doing healthier foods but I am still holding at 130 (2 weeks now )
Congrats to all of you on your losses and victories over whatever monster lives with you!
My kids started school back on thursday and Ally LOVES kindergarten but Jonathan hates first grade. He has a case of seperation anxiety leaving mommy makes him scared and sad. Mommy did something she has not done in 6 and a half years....I stayed in bed ALLLLL DAY!
OK off to catch up on ten days of emails and stuff...good luck all
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET PEA!!! Sorry Im a bit late...
Hi everyone, I am three days binge free. I even exercised yesterday.
I have a goal to be 145 lbs by my 41st birthday in October.
I know about all or nothing mentality. And "this is the last time, I'll start tomorrow" excuse.
Thank you for voicing my hidden thoughts and shameful confessions. The monster in the light is not a monster anymore...
day 12 without a binge. This is a big deal for me. It helps that I am having (structured) yummy meals-buying more expensive cuts of meat and out of season vegetables.
Binge free, but not so 100% healthy and perfect and whatever...but I am slowly crawling back on the waggon....
I am still suffering from nicotin carvings. Sometimes I really wished I had used nicotin chewing gums in the beginning- now itīs too late.....
But in a few weeks everything will be ok. I will be a healthy and sane non smoker...hopefully.
end of the week!
that she had 2 hotties in pursuit but i was really looking forward to the twists of a mystery. and at the end well don't want to give the plot away but the bad guy that almost killed her is on the loose and they let her go home alone
. i mean honestly. of course it wouldn't be safe. it was like one of those movies where you're screaming don't go in the dark room with the bodies that have just been carved up. sheesh!
Head on over. 
You're not quitters, and that is HUGE!! 
and congratulations on your success this past week!! 
