I am writing this in desperation having just eaten an entire order from Domino's pizza myself at the end of a week off work in which I did this pretty much every day. I have come to the conclusion that without the routine and rigour of my day-to-day life at work, I have absolutely no ability to resist bingeing. I work in a school so I have 'mandatory' time off at least every 6-7 weeks and the long summer holidays are coming up at the end of July. I can't avoid time off work and down time, so how do I handle this? What can I do to deal with a lack of structure without turning to binge eating??!
I'm desperate for any suggestions or advice. During this week's holiday I ate fast food every single day and I reverted to my usual full-on binges of eating giant packets of crisps (chips), popcorn and massive chocolate bars one right after the other. I must have consumed thousands of calories, and I wasn't even hungry mostly - just craving crap or eating out of habit. Before this week I planned a whole bunch of healthy, interesting new recipes to try for meals and snacks to make the most of my week off (I've also been to the gym nearly every day) but almost all the ingredients are still in my cupboards as I've eaten so much other junk I haven't even used them
None of my usual tricks work without me having some kind of routine to fall back on, and I don't have the money or sufficient places to visit to be on the go all the time to keep myself busy.
I can't do this again for six weeks over the summer, or even fight this any time I have five minutes with nothing to do. What is wrong with me
?! Does anyone else have this problem? What can I do to stop this, or help it not be so bad? Thank you in advance if you read this whole drivel, and if you have any suggestions. I think it might have helped a bit even just to 'say' it out loud.