My goodness,
Fruitlady--you must be reading my mind! I've been contemplating PB and J sandwiches for the last hour.
Day 6 is today and it's been really a struggle. All i can think about is food and what i could binge on. I've overeaten a lot this afternoon, nothing really horrible, like fruits (1.5 bananas, an apple), and cheese slices (3), a teaspon of almond butter, yogurt and berries, and i already ate a sandwhich for lunch (500 cals) with a quaker oats chewy bar (110 cals).
i don't get what is going on with my cravings today. i ate breakfast (oatmeal with 1/2 banana and apple).
I fee like binging seriously. but i'm not. i'm gonna suffer this mentally and come out at the end feeling better. sigh
Stay strong, Beila! If you can't get your mind off eating, then eat only foods you KNOW will not trigger a binge. I've gone through this enough times to know better than thinking i can eat ONE piece of chocolate. So if i'm craving chocolate i might eat a chocolate chip Fiber One bar. Not really interested in eating more than one...it will cause a stomachache. So just find things that you won't overeat!
Stay strong, Beila! If you can't get your mind off eating, then eat only foods you KNOW will not trigger a binge. I've gone through this enough times to know better than thinking i can eat ONE piece of chocolate. So if i'm craving chocolate i might eat a chocolate chip Fiber One bar. Not really interested in eating more than one...it will cause a stomachache. So just find things that you won't overeat!
thanks surfer girl! seriously, i must be pms-ing or something. does that happen during TOM? like i could just cry or scream or something. i just keep my mind occupied with the computer, 3FC, and tv at the moment. it's gonna get better i can tell already. but the thoughts keep torturing me. yeah, i'll stay strong.
i've chanegd my signature with mini goals, i'm looking forward to bingefree 30 days, and just trying to stay in the zone.
thanks surfer girl! seriously, i must be pms-ing or something. does that happen during TOM? like i could just cry or scream or something. i just keep my mind occupied with the computer, 3FC, and tv at the moment. it's gonna get better i can tell already. but the thoughts keep torturing me. yeah, i'll stay strong.
i've chanegd my signature with mini goals, i'm looking forward to bingefree 30 days, and just trying to stay in the zone.
Oh yeah PMS will do that to you! Sometimes it makes me want to cry that i can't eat!
Mini goals are good! Don't micromanage your body though...there might be weeks that you can't lose at all, and other weeks when you lose a lot more.
My first mini-goal is to make it through 30 days binge free. My second goal, immediately after that, is to take my cheat day (day 31) without turning it into a binge! That will be the REAL test!
Sometimes it makes me want to cry that i can't eat!
Surfergirl-- The above made me laugh out loud! Oh gosh, i'm on an emotional rollercoaster. I think i will be happier though if i DON'T binge. Funny though huh? We always think that binging will make us happy, yet it's actually when you DON'T do it and have self restraint. Actually self restraint gives me calm peaceful happieness. Oh well, whatever, sorry to sound sappy :P
Fruit Lady-- Yeah, PB whether in a sandwich or not, is so good. I just don't buy it though. It's actually quite expensive in the stores! Also, the PB has partially hydrogenated oils which i hear is not good for your body, it's unhealthy fat. So i get almond butter, which is sorta PB in taste, but not worthy of binging for me. So i never binge on that. It's so funny talking about this. Kinda relieving since I do all of this in hiding.
I'm contemplating working out at the gym hard core style tonight just to tire me out and compensate for overeating this afternoon, in hopes of putting myself into a self-induced post workout coma in order to prevent a binge or any further overeating today. We'll see.
Have two days 'under my belt' of eating well, not binging and maintaining control. Feels wonderful! Others successes here really inspire me. Thanks! I look forward to checking in each day to see what is up with you all.
I have definitely cried thinking about eating before...once I was PMSing and I thought about lasagna and I must have had a good 20 minute bawl session over it. There is no logic or reason to our madness!
vixsin - somewhere along the way I missed that you joined Onederland!! CONGRATS!!!
i'd like to say all is well... i am eating okay... but i broke up with my bf, for the third and final time, last night... so i am numb... my tummy purged everything from yesterday due to nerves so i am super hungry but i know if i start... that will be it... i will eat for days straight and i am just starting to feel relief in my pants... looking great is the best revenge right?
have any of you ladies broken up with someone even though they are a fantastic person but you just cannot get "there" with them? i don't mean sexually, i just mean that we are compatible but not quite "right"... ???? i dont want to settle but i wonder if i want too much... anyways... my last overeat was Sat but otherwise i am doing well with food... for now!
Regarding the PB--i too cannot go near PB because i binge on it. I even binged on PB2! I just ate it in powder form with a spoon. So i bought defatted peanut flour, hoping it would be similar but less binge-worthy. It is. Certainly not as delicious as PB or even PB2, but you can get some semblance of the PB flavor without wanting to binge. I actually ate it with a spoon in powder form for breakfast. I know that's kinda weird; it would probably work well if you like adding PB to stuff such as oatmeal.
