My mom hid snack stuff, big time! It wasn't so she could dole it out to me though, it was for herself and she's been obese all my life, too.
I didn't even realize she hid food until I was 13 or so, then one day my little sister (who was the pet, and 7 years younger than me) came into the living room with a Twinkie while I was babysitting her. When I asked her where she got it, she said out of Mom's dresser and that Mom hides them from me but lets her have one whenever she wanted. I followed her out to our mother's room and found a dresser drawer filled with Twinkies, Cupcakes, name brand cereal, etc. I was so mad... but that was par for the course with my mother. At that time I was normal average size because I was so active. She simply didn't want to share her goodies to me or my stepbrothers.
I remember being real young and we'd go to Sonic a lot in the small town near where we lived (well before my sister was born). She'd order me a corndog and a pop in addition to her own meal... but when it came, she'd bite off a big hunk of my corndog and take a big drink of my pop before handing it to me. I can always remember begging her not to but she'd say "I have to make sure it's okay for you." Yeah right. Most times I would eat what was left because I was hungry, but it ruined my meal. She also would pick the 'crispy' off of my KFC chicken before giving it to me. To this day, I can not stand to eat or drink after anyone else. It's funny, because my kids have no qualms about eating or drinking after me, but then again, I respected their right to have their own food, so they never had the hang-up to begin with.
I never hid food from my kids.
There is a lot of emotional baggage tied up in food for me, and I covet food and use it for soothing anxieties, stress, and boredom. But I always try to remember, my mom isn't still providing or not providing my food, and she doesn't have the opportunity to eat half my dinner before handing it to me anymore. What I place in my mouth is of my own free will. But I'm pretty sure my upbringing has something to do with my overeating. That, and I just hate feeling hungry at all. It reminds me of times when I found nothing to eat (apparently because it was hidden!)
Last edited by RetroChick; 03-26-2011 at 04:19 PM.
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