[1Bluerose68]

I could not sleep last night, and yet was so tired feeling after 1/2 day of work yesterday that I collapsed while feeding the cats their food. Just kind of tripped over my arms or something weird? So then I ended up having a bruise on my index finger, not sure how. Then when I really needed to get some RandR i just could NOT shut the engine off. I finally had a few sweets like a Luna Bar and Soy milk 1/2 water mixed into it and then had 3 apple newtons. Finally fell asleep and when i awakened had to have a lot more caffeine than the usual. I wish I had more natural energy. My neck chronically is tense daily and by the time i arrive home at night after work, usually 4:30 ish, I just want to go to sleep. Usually i can't as I also must take a walk or visit my gym. Unfortunately a walk usually doesn't get my heart rate up enough to burn any calories, it's for relaxing really. But i can't always go to the gym as my back pain takes so much energy out of me. But I want to fit into all my size 14 clothing, and this still keeps me motivated. So I keep going to the gym, in spite of feeling exhausted by end of my work day. Fortunately I try to NOT do laundry except on the weekend as this makes my back pain even worse. As does my large boob size too.....I feel like such a big boob.....?