Hi everyone
My name is Nicole. I'm a 19 yr old full time college student ready to take control back over my life.
I've been a "chubby" kid nearly my whole life. You know that good ol' "chart" that your pediatrician /doctor would always take out and then sit you down for that dreaded "you need to lose some weight" talk? Yeah. That was every doctor visit for me. I was always 10-15lbs overweight and they always warned me "if you don't catch it now, it'll grow out of control" I of course didn't listen, but they were right.
My weight didn't really bloom out of control until I was 11 years old. I was sent to live with a family member who then sexually assaulted me from the age of 11 to 15.
During that time depression welcomed itself in my life. I first turned to self-harm, I would cut and burn myself daily, until I started getting in trouble, and I ended up at therapist and mental hospitals, I never told about what happened to me so everyone kept trying to say "Oh, she wants attention" or "someone help her there's something wrong with her brain", when truly, I was just scarred. I stopped the self-harm and turned to food, I went from 145 to 300lbs.
One day I looked in the mirror and realized this isn't loving myself. I can't expect anyone to love me if I don't love myself and the only person that needs to love me is myself and that what I'm doing is just letting everyone who hurt me before; win. And that I wouldn't allow. So I started on my first weightloss journey. I was dedicated. Healthy food and exercise became my life for months. I went from 300lbs to 225lbs.
Then something tragic happened and all my hard work was lost as I turned back to food. Now I am back up to 280lbs and I am ready to stop it there and get on the right path again. I just need a little boost this time, so here I am
Would love to meet new friends and support buddies.
I am here for anyone also <3