Hello! I am back
Hello everyone!
My name is Steph and I am back to 3FC... I look at the site every now and then and was a member (under a different username) awhile ago.
I have recently gained a good amount of weight, about 40 pounds in a little over a year. I know everybody has to "blame" something, and I really hate to but I know there is a reason I put on the weight. My mom was sick pretty much for an entire year (2013 into 2014), and her suffering and pain took a toll on me. I turned to food as a comfort. Instead of going to the gym, I wanted to be there for my mom. My mom wouldn't eat a lot, so i would always try to get her her favorite food (usually steak n shake is what she would crave), so naturally I would order some for myself to. I felt guilty for having to work full time when my mom was sick, and as soon as I got done with work I would race home to be with my mom. I wouldn't allow myself to go to the gym, because that was time away from my mom and I felt like I needed to always be there with her when I could.
Fast forward to a year later, and my mom is better. I thank God everyday she is okay now and beat her illness. So now I need to focus on ME.
My lowest adult weight was 183 pounds (I am 5'11), and honestly I would love to get to that weight. That was approximately March 2013, and since then have gained approximately 40 pounds. My 183 lbs was when I was going to the gym every day, and eating health (for the most part, anyway!) My highest weight was 223 (about 2 weeks ago) and now I am at 216. I know it is not a lot, but it it is a start. I am going to focus on eating healthier and working out a lot more.
Does anyone else feel so overwhelmed by the amount of weight they have to lose? I know that many people on here have 100+ pounds to lose, and my 45 pounds I want to lose seems so small compared to that. Just feeling very overwhelmed....
I'm so glad I was there for my mom when she was sick but now that she has beat it i am ready to FOCUS ON ME!
Thank you for the support I know you will all provide....
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