Those without this problem can get bored/tired of dealing with it in a loved one. Or the person is so in the thick of it that they dish out abuse or hostility that is unbearable to live with.
I do not know your living situation and cannot comment on the bearability of it beyond this...
If it is unbearable, get out. Nobody deserves abuse, and one partner having issues is no reason for your OWN mental health to be thrown under the bus.
If it is bearable and there's some hope still there in the relationship -- review how you relate with him then. Are you adding to the cycle? Will you own your bit? Will he own his? Do you guys need marriage counseling? Something else?
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i was just going to say that he has no excuse for low self-esteem
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Self esteem is a mental health issue. He doesn't have to have an excuse to suffer from it. I don't have to have an excuse to be hypothyroid -- I just AM a hypothyroid person. I manage my condition and take my meds.
We all have moments where we are not sure of ourselves but people who suffer from
chronic bad self esteem? That's a whole other ball game in terms of mental health.
For those not having this it may not appear to be as VIVID as a larger mental health problem but it's certainly VALID to the sufferer.
And it can rob people of optimum functionality in their daily lives just like other mental health problems (alzheimer, depression, etc) can.
But I didn't always realize self esteem was a larger mental health issue too. I went through that stage like we all do in puberty. Then I outgrew it. I used to think Dad was being immature or something and it drove me nuts. But now that I understand it can sometimes be a normal passing phase and other times it is a lifelong mental health hurdle for some people... So I'm a bit more sympathetic.
But I know it is tiresome too live with and I'm tired of my Dad this way! I can only imagine how tired of it he is -- to be trapped in a prison of his own mind.
So the self esteem mental health patient -- gotta manage your condition then! Make an effort!
What he goes on about sometimes frustrates me because he values things that make
no sense to me at all. Like who CARES what other people think? But there's the nub. HE cares. And he doesn't know how to stop caring so much or reframe it in a more realistic way. He takes it up and over the top!
To the point of paralysis even. He can't make a decision or act because he's so worried about what people will think of his ability to make the "right" choice. He's so afraid of being vulnerable or making mistakes he takes on this "get them before they get you" attitude. And approaching people with a chip on his shoulder only makes them hostile or defensive in turn -- because they don't know him from adam. They perceived him as some jerk stranger coming along with huffy at them. So they just get huffy back. Which is understandable, but just confirms his inner belief he is "horrible."
So more determined he goes with that chip on his shoulder next time out in the world. It is vicious circle thing he cannot break himself out of yet because he's afraid to put the chip down and be vulnerable around strangers. He is a bit more relaxed around family, but not much more so.
YES, there are some jerks out there! But not ALL people are jerks! Most of the time if you approach in friendly ways, most people will respond in kind. It's all up to you. He is trying to learn this in his classes.
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i wonder if i dug up some diet-friendly version of the foods he's always cooking and suggested it'd be SUCH a huge favour to me.....? maybe that would help get him contributing in a more positive way?
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If you think it would help, you could ask him to make some diet-friendly dishes. But really? It isn't your job to "prop" him up or fix him. And what are you trying to help here? His self esteem problems or your relationship problems and how you communicate with each other?
If you are in a relationship? Ok, be try supportive of his personal growth and healthy well being. Yes, try to talk nicer to each other and get along better. Definitely.
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just his cooking won't fix his deeper mental health problems with self esteem.
"You are my wife -- you HAVE to be nice to me" kind of thoughts. And wife being kind doesn't solve his problems in interacting with others (strangers, coworkers, etc) in positive, esteem building ways. Dad is here. He's the one who actually has to do the growing and do his mental health work to change his inner environment to take it the rest of the way.
Just like the actual diabetic would have to take his meds and take his walks and whatever? Dad has to be the one to address his inner environment and learn to tell the difference between was IS within his control, and what is outer environment that is NOT within his control and how to manage his reactions to that in positive ways to build his self esteem up rather than negative ways where he tears himself down. He has to drop the chip on his shoulder. It's not serving him well. But he's had it so long it's like a security blanket or something. Change is scary for him.
Trying to make home a safe place to be is a good thing. Trying to improve YOUR relationship to him is a good thing. Just don't expect those bits to be the whole enchilada here -- is all I'm saying. And don't sacrfice your OWN mental health for his.
If he really wants to get over it, he's got lots of work in other areas that you cannot do FOR him. If he is trying and you are willing to be there at his side while he's doing it, swell. If you are NOT willing to be there at his side in this process... well don't. Why be there? You don't have to.
I'm glad my Dad is finally trying after so many decades but it's painful to watch him struggle so. Sigh.
Your husband? How he talks to himself inside his own head? That's only something he can change and a
lifetime of feeding the bad dog isn't going to change overnight. He may not know HOW else to talk to himself in there or know how to catch himself when he goes down that path in his mind -- of feeding the bad dog.
Self-esteem comes from doing esteemable things too. Not just in how you talk to yourself inside your head. If he spends his time ripping on people, I can only imagine he assume other people spend their time ripping on him. People who overly care for social reputation (what others think of them) need to do OTHER things so they don't overvalue that one small portion of it.
What does he do that is esteemable? And does he value it? Like doing well at work? Volunteering? Hobbies?
Is he ready to own it? And if not... how long are you willing to be together with his health issue going unaddressed? It obviously affects the quality of his life. And in turn yours.
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