DANGIT! I said it - DANGIT! That feels good.
Okay, so I am down to 160 after being 230 about a year & a half ago. I exercise regularly and track my food with WW online. I've been strong and resolute all year but started slacking off around the holidays. I gained & lost the same 10 pounds for months. Silver lining - I haven't given up (yay!) and I have remained steadfast with my exercise.
But...I'm getting exhausted with the "trying to lose weight" lifestyle. I'm angry as HECK at myself for gaining and losing the same few pounds over and over the past few months and I'm even more angry that I am binging again. For roughly 9 months I didn't binge, even though I'd been a binger for a loooong time. I'd have a slip-up here or there, but very rarely. Now, they are a weekly occurence. In fact, I worked out
7 days last week, and worked out hard and didn't lose a pound (actually gained .4) because I binged almost everyday.
Saturday & Sunday I did pretty well -today...I had another binge. Why? WHY? There is no answer, it's just a habit.
So, I am not giving up. I cannot give up. But I feel like these last 20 lbs are becoming insurmountable. I honestly believe I have the skills to maintain (in fact, I've maintained for months now) - but I am just tired of trying to lose. Does that make sense?
Sorry to vent. Anyone else ever feel this way? I think I am starting to rebel against the "lose weight" phase of my life-plan.