Prepare yourself, this is going to be my journal entry that I find too silly to put in my actual journal & may be kind of long.
I am so ridiculous!!! I am seriously frustrating myself! lol
I had lost a lot of weight recently (down to 217!!) & then one day this week I saw it go up to 219 & just got so stressed I havent really been counting my calories... I have had 3 super stressful 13 hour days in a row; and (what I describe as) binged today- I had a burger king disgusting spicy chicken for a SNACK! and a two item Chinese food combo for dinner!
ICK I feel like CRAP!
I just dont get it... I KNOW that if I just stay consistent with my calories; even if its like 1700 a day, I WILL lose weight- it may go up due to sodium or whatever here & there, but if I could just get myself to keep counting- even if its my daily allowance in straight up chocolate, I dont care! I just want to be consistent! & I get so frustrated with myself when Im not..
My entire weight loss up to now- I have never been consistent- Im constantly yo-yo-ing; and I know thats horrible for your health; and thats the point of all of this, I just want to be healthy! I would always eat really good & lose weight for 3 or 4 days; then maintain, maybe gain a pound or two & then loose another 3 lol.. one step forward two steps back...
AND all the pressure of me wanting to get down to at least 190 by the time I go to Europe this March is really stressin me out too- but I dont just want to get down to 190- I want to get down to my goal- and maintain it! But Im just not doin it...
Oh well.. Im done beating myself up, I just want a change! If anyone has any advice as to how to snap into it & stay consistent; let me know!