Hey,
Yeah, I feel kinda embarassed for writing the OP, but such as it is.
To Jane, you're pretty spot on. I'm bipolar, and also going through a lot right now, so I've been easily discouraged.
I'm finally starting to understand that no, I can't 'eat like everyone else does', because those people probably don't eat like I think they do.
It's also the whole thing that I would never let someone treat me the way I treat myself sometimes.
I think it was on someone's signature, something ot the effect of 'one day at a time', like saef said, about breaking it down into manageable parts. Small victories are much more uplifting than a huge downer.
Of course, like lots of people I wish I was 'naturally good' at dieting, but I'm not, hence why I do need to watch my weight.
Over the weekend I realized that I'm up to 179 (
), and that it's starting to effect my physical health as well as mental. I also finally understand that the best thing I acn do for my husband short of giving him a kidney is to be healthy and be able to help him heal.