This is a thread talking to myself, so if it helps you, great! lol
Being a person who yo-yo dieted, and starved herself/binge cycled up to over 300 lbs, this weight loss journey is an exercise (no pun intended!) in learning how to *think* differently in addition to learning how to eat differently. It is a lesson in learning how to control my mind in addition to controlling my portions. It is a lesson in letting go of the all/nothing attitude that was behind many a failure.
So, it is Easter and I 'splurged' a bit BUT the amazing thing (to me anyway) is:
I still counted every calorie and ended up at or a couple hundred below maintenance calories - so I may not have had a deficit, but I will not gain any either!
I allowed myself a half a fun-sized bag of one of my favorite candies!! Only 100 calories (I counted the individual pieces) and I didn't binge! I didn't eat the whole bag and then some! I didn't use it as a spring board to hate myself or go overboard! That alone is a SUCCESS!
Later in the evening I had half a cup of caramel popcorn. Not the whole bag! Not going back for 'one more handful' and only counting the half cup calories!!
I had the same dinner every one else had - but reasonable...dare I say, small???... portions! I didn't go back for seconds! I didn't lie to myself about calories! I didn't stuff myself and live the night in guilt speaking hateful to myself inside and swearing I would only eat 500 calories 'tomorrow'.
...and I am back to eating 'losing' calories tomorrow. Today was a win, even though I ate maintenance calories
Thank Jesus, seriously, you all don't know (or some probably do!) just how big those things are to me. It is like, I am really learning how to, I dunno, live in the world and not just my 'diet bubble' and remain in control.
I still have a longggg way to go but I was so happy