Hi Christy, my suggestiont to you is to find a nutritionist in your area that deals with eating disorders and give her/him a call. Tell this person everything that you have said here and they will be able to help you find a healthier eating pattern for you. I know that you think you are doing the right thing, but 1200 cal is for weight loss, not to maintain a healthy weight for a young, active, healthy girl. You are starving yourself, though you may not think so. I know when you lose weight you are petrified you will gain it back, or you are so used to a pattern for weight loss it is hard to break, but if you don't you could be headed for more serious eating disorders. I have many disorders over many years, starting at 16, last being treated at age 37. At that point I was obsessed with exersice and calorie/fat counting, keeping a food journal of everything I put in my mouth. All this once again led to my purging ( which for me is a control thing). My point is I can remember my therapist literally yelling at me that I had an eating disorder. I argued with her saying I was eating (however little it was) and exercising, I was trying to be healthy. She would get so frustrated with me and tell me I had a "nonspecific" disorder. We do not always have to fall into a category. We can be a little of this and a little of that. Anyways I do not want to preach or ramble. I hope you find someone in your area that you can talk to. Just give it a try. Take care of yourself