Going Back Tomorrow
Hi everyone! I got to goal a few years ago and unfortunately I started going to weigh ins less frequently...until I just quit going altogether. I am about 145 now--about 15 pounds over goal. I still have all my points info but the truth isI have tried to do this program by myself but I just can't. So tomorrow, after putting this off for a year, I am going back.
I have to be honest, I am excited and I am also terrified. All I ever think about is my weight and food/24/7. When I wake up, when I go to bed, when I am sleeping! I am an emotional mess. When I lost weight it was on the exchange program, right before everything switched to the points.
I guess I am terrified because for my weight range, I feel like 23 points is starvation level! I eat by the numbers and I never feel satisfied. I feel like I crave everything, junk food, chips, chocolate, peanuts, cookies, cakes, good food too! Everything. I am a huge eater. I probably eat 60 points a day if I counted them up. The only thing I don't eat enough of are vegetables. Hardly any, because truthfully, I don't know how to prepare them a good and filling low fat way. Are there any foods that "save" you? Some really high volume stuff. Dabs of this and that don't get it for me.
I know WW is all about moderation and I guess that's what scares me. I don't eat anything in moderation. I want large volumes of food, but what is it I could have that would fill me up and keep me satisfied and within my point range? I drink tons of water a day, I just don't feel like I ever get enough food.
I have eaten everything in sight today, as if it were my last meal. Maybe I am not mentally healthy enough to go to WW, I don't know but I feel like if I don't I will live my life in this bondage to food. Any encouragement would be appreciated. I am really at the end of my rope.
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