thank you guys so much for your support
really and truly, i didn't expect to have so many good vibes and prayers coming my way, but they must have helped because yes, I did it!
so, since we live together and neither can afford to move out, we're in some strange territory now. i felt closer to him last night than i had in a long time...ah, emotions, so unpredictable. regardless, i know i did the right thing and now its time to move ahead with my independence, while still sharing the same bed for now (which has been used for nothing more than just sleeping for months now!)...
again, thank you all so much!!
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