frustrated
Without going through my entire history. I am writing this just to say I'm frustrated with myself. I used to track my calories and it worked to help me lose some weight, but after a while I found I was getting a little too intense about it, so I stopped. About a year and a bit later and I'm almost back where I started so I thought I'd track my calories again for a bit to get myself on track. Today was the first day. I was doing well until I had some cheese and crackers, which apparently is a caloric demon. I worked out and came home to have a low calorie dinner and then boom. After dinner, I want a treat, so I make some popcorn, that doesnt satisfy me so I make another little treat and then have something else. Before I know it, I've had 800 calories in half an hour .. after i've eaten enough for the day. I know I do this most nights. It's the nights that kill me. I'm trying to figure out how to stop this but it's hard. I'm compelled each night. I live alone. I have no boyfriend. I think it's actually lonliness that has me eating.. lonliness and boredom.
Anyway, tomorrow is a new day and I hope to have a better day then. It's no wonder I haven't lost weight in so long. I keep having high calorie snacks and then heading to bed.
I won't give up .. but i'm still frustrated!
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