thank you both very much
I appreciate the concrete and honest feedback. I am planning on rejoining WW, I feel that something just may 'click' in my brain this time to make this time different but alas I have said that many times before. I think that I'm truly starting to realize that my health is at stake and I have so much to live for.
I may go to a meeting this weekend, I am a bit nervous but I think it would be worth it.
Any advice on how to face that dreaded number on the scale which I have been in denial about for so long? Just the thought of seeing the number makes me cringe yet I think that this will be a new beginning.