Help: I can't stop binging and have gained back all my weight loss
I am writing this at 1am as I am feeling terrible and disgusted at myself.
I got married in March and did really well with dieting, got down to the lowest weight I've been since high school.
Since getting married I have started binging lots and gained about 5kgs rapidly. I feel awful, fat, bloated, ugly, revolting.
Right now I have stuffed myself so much I can barely move, my stomach hurts and I wish I could make myself throw up but I can't do that.
I have struggled with an Eating disorder on and off since I was a teenager but it has been well controlled for some years but every now and then I'll randomly go through binging phases which I can't control.
I should be happy, I jsut got married, but all I can thnk about is my weight gain and how much of a failure I am for eating all this food
I don't know what to do. If anyone can help it would be much appreciated
thank you so much