That's a hard one! I'm sorry to hear about your struggles. I'm in much the same boat with my binge eating! I'm not sure if you will like support groups or if they would be helpful enough because they are not led by professional counselors, but you may want to try. They have live or online meetings in many states. Check out the website for either Eating Disorders Anonymous or Overeater's Anonymous, which is designed like the 12 steps of AA. If nothing else, one of these may give you support and maybe you'll find local people who have better advice for you. Best of luck.