Bad day, bad mood, bad food!
Today is not over yet but so far it has pretty much sucked. To be honest, it began late last night. Allow me to explain. I have a big family and I'm the oldest of kids. Two of those kids are strong healthy teenage boys who are ALWAYS hungry.
Well last night, around 9, they start complaining that they didn't have a proper dinner, meaning my mom didn't have time to cook because she had to work very late and the dinner they fixed themselves wasn't enough. So, my mom felt guilty and asked me to drive them to get fast food. Now, I didn't order anything for myself because I wasn't hungry and fast food is NOT apart of my diet at all! But (there's always a but, isn't there?) my sister didn't want her burger so she gave it to me and I had it.
I didn't dwell on it because for the past 2 weeks I have been really good with what I eat and I figured one mistake isn't going to kill me, I just have to be sure to not repeat it. Well, guess what? I repeated it today! I had no intention of doing it but my family is in the process of selling our house and no one could be at home during it. Everyone else was at work or school but my father, who is disabled and doesn't work, and took the car together and drove around town aimlessly while the inspection was going on. Long story short, we ended up eating some pretty unhealthy food and I feel like complete crap because of it. I didn't have time to prepare my own food today (which I should have last night, I know!) and I was in a bad mood because of it so I ate.
I could say I have no support from my family, which is partially true because I am the only person who has to buy her own food and cook it herself and deal with the fact that sometimes they eat it! But honestly, I should have prepared my food last night and I didn't. Maybe I'm not as serious about this as I should be? I dunno. I really want to get fit and healthy but it seems like I succumb to cravings whenever I start to see results. Have any of you ever felt like this? Any advice for me?
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